While lying in bed with eyes closed last night - as I was hearing all the noises in the street and hysterrical HAAAAPPPPPYYYYYYY NEEEEEEYYYY YEEEAAAAR in our street in the back of the mind , I think I started writing this music - I am sorry - musings....!!
Well, Before going to the subject, I had a sleeping pill for the first time in my life yesterday out of sheer helplessness. Wanted to have a real good sleep as I had slept just 4 hours for the past 5 -6 days....
it was indeed a great experience to take a sleeping pill you know !!
It did not knock me down completely but I enjoyed immensely the gradual settling down of mind AND without much fuss I was going into the sleep mode in a subtly different manner.....This is just an interlude....
Well, I happily remember a poem that I wrote 5 years back and proudly posted in our notice board of my previous office - getting sincere hand shakes / appreciation for it. It was about the purpose of taking new year vows & urging every one to use it as a powerful tool.
(now when I look at this particular piece of mine - it was only a pseudo poem OR a premature baby for your better understanding)
It always happens like this to me.....I have never felt great about my school days / college days when I think about it now. So are my old poems which look bit queer AND having lot of possibilites of amendment
Well, AdiSankara proclaimed "punarapi jananam punarapi maranam" - to push us to a corner and start chanting GOVINDA GOVINDA..!!
We understand it, appreciate it but then, never carry it for too long in our minds as we have too many other things to handle in lives....!!
Just to assure you all, I do have the same problems that you too have @ your hand.
But then, always a new year had been quite special day for me ever since my child hood. There is a certain bliss / aura around it and has always put me into introspection mode. Being equidistant from my Birthday (which falls in June), I enjoy these two days though I get doomed and depressed on all other 363 days (I am sorry, this year its 364, isn't it ??)
Coming back to WHY I quoted Bhaja Govindham above, New year, above all unexplainable blissess AND serious / sincere Pledges that many of us take.....is a simple and straight truth which is in front of us unmasked AND without a doubt.
YES, its a new beginning and an opportunity for us to say "CHALO"....or "ChOD DHO"....!!
Yeah, Adhi Sankara almost threatens we might have to live again and again if we fail to keep the Lord in memory; In fact I have started some JAPAM in a limited way during 2011 about which I had written in this blog not long ago...
But then, I still have a strong doubt about why to scare about REBIRTH ?
To experience all the goods and bads of this beautiful planet once again and learn things from basics seems to be an exciting possibility for me.
How does the above statement relate to this subject line ?
Comrades, Every new year is a simulation for a new birth - if we are willing.
If we learn to appreciate Jan 1st in its truest worth, then.....its very much possible to retire back & lay down in mother earth without any regrets on ....31st Dec
(like how I was yesterday ....eating a sleeping pill ALMOST like a ....... CORPSE)
My sincere wishes to every one who trespasses AGANDAM....not only for this new year but for every new beginning yet to come in your lives.
No more heart burns / brudings.....Chalo....!! Aagae kaam bahuth hai.....!!
Regards // Suren
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