Touching Lives......!!

Prelude : one more midnight musings from me - since the energy level is bit high today...

Dear All

I reached home bit late today (around 11 PM) - but then, after tossing in bed for past 2 hours, I felt it is better to vent out my (ooze out ??) bliss a little bit AND then retire back to bed peacefully. I always brag about writing poems only in midnights - on such days like this, I feel even my musings too are giving me the same level of satisfaction that my poem gives !!
Perhaps, let me stop the prelude at this point because I realize that its more YOU should feel this posting as a poem & mine is not just enough :-)

Well, As I traveled back in the (co organized) cab, I sat - as I normally do- in the front seat along with the driver and got into a nice talk all the way. It always happens to me that these drivers become a great friend for me at the end of the journey - not that they keep in touch with me regularly after the journey BUT then - they remain with a certain amount of intimacy when we meet up later by any chance (potential friends ?? don't know !!)

Details are not so important - as I got down I shook hand with this driver (a young boy of 20) and thanked him heartily for his service, his parting sentence is the precise reason for my energy level today.....!!

He just told me this with lot of gratitude and humility "Sir, I can never forget you in my life !!". I smiled back and patted him on his shoulder as I walked towards my home.

Now, it had always been my passion to get into teaching industry taking an early retirement - I am increasingly realizing that my exact ambition / goal / passion is not about teaching. For that matter, not very long ago - I was fumbling for words when some body put forth a point blank question when I shared my goal with her - a senior lady in corporate world.
(the simple question was "what is that I want to teach ?"). Though I managed to reply her using my quick wit ("its not important what I am going to teach BUT more about HOW I will teach") - I still remember this lady's queer looks as I was imagining that it was a great response to her.

In fact I understand that I need to start preparing myself on "what I should teach" - please don't laugh....!!
its two decades I had touched my academic text books and my soft skills and personality are not as such extra ordinary that I can be a great Trainer - if I look for avenues on training industry. (for that matter, I have heard that Soft skills / Leadership training is extremely competitive with too many players in our city).
I really do not know any thing else as of this moment that I can even think of getting started to start this career....!!

But then, its just that I had always admired this profession more as a tool to touch lives than as a end by itself.
This realization is quite perceptible off late with every such little instance of me getting in high voltage with few words of a driver with whom I just spent an hour. The most interesting part is that I did not talk any thing today to flatter / please him; and it was more a 50 : 50 time sharing between us....!!
The words come out from him and many others earlier perhaps out of the manner I "engage" them and serve their venting out needs.....!!

Spiritual Gurus proclaim / make profound statements on the above title - in fact my Beloved Sadhguru tells that his life time mission is this.

Perhaps I am craving to do the same thing with a slightly inferior technology (or non-rewarding - financially speaking ??) because I have the interest and confidence that I can pick up the WHAT to teach quite fast with the burning desire in the heart - thumping to share it with others.

Well, with just three more days for a brand new year - I really am quite happy at this self discovery in the mid night & not having too much regret that I have lived for 38 full years without understanding what is that I craving to do AND why this craving....
Better late than never - as the saying goes......

The whole eternity and the innumerable future births are in store for me to seek my salvation thru' the tool that I am consciously choosing -

its ok the world is going to be blessed with a "new" inexperienced teacher - alas - with a bald / gray head;

Krishnaarpanam - as always....

Suren