****Midnight Musings******

Prelude : This is quite a personal post. Only fools publicize their personal feelings in public, right ?
But then, I am a refined fool - I am not going to give link of this post in FB.
Let those who are destined read this. NO FEED BACKS INTENDED please

Dear All

Today is a memorable day for me. 

With due regards to umpteen number of people who have toiled all their lives due to various factors, life had been as cool as cucumber for me until the same day last year.

On 18th Aug 2013 (it was a sunday), I woke up earlier than usual, had a fresh bath and felt quite healthy when I felt like going to my favourite Saibaba temple at Jaishankar Street, West Mambalam. It was more than a  month I had gone there, so with a nice frame of mind I went there, spent half hour and was on the way returning back home.

As I turned towards Arya Gowdar Street, I felt a bit of dizziness within and realized that some thing was not ok. When I regained consciousness, I was in a local hospital well known to me where I used to visit every month to meet a specialist for my rheumatic problem. To be precise, I distinctly remembered the voice of the nurse who used to handle the administration part of the clinic. Then I realized that more than half dozen of my family members have gathered up. 

It seems I had an attack of siezure (commonly recognized as "fits") and in the corner of the road I had slumped without much of damage to  the body parts. (the scar still remains in my feet which could be some stone or the pavement corner). To cut the long eventful 3 months story short, I was in hospital for close to 20 days and recovered gradually. The important - rather interesting part - is that I got into sort of altered states of mind  and it appears I had spoken "too much" about "every thing". Few I do remember, for many - when I heard about it, I had a hearty laugh. But People around me would not realize what when through inside me during that period.

Think I had made a casual reference of drama that happened within my own head at AGANDAM too. Though substantial part of details forgotten now, I still recall the depth of the feelings that was live within me during the period of hallucination. I don't mind admitting that some of them were semi spiritual in nature which might had made me behave in weird manners during that period but then, its the same divinity which brought me back to normal senses, albeit gradually.

In the physical realm, from being in a job break period those days, I ended up into a new career with some body's love and support but .....honestly no thing matters much to me these days after having seen the peaks of what I could be though it was only for a short spell. 

.Just wanted to vent out  @ AGANDAM as ..... as..... I prefer to move on without forgetting the foot prints of this grand day
(And my scar in my right feet remains until I get burnt up finally - just a wishful thinking, you know !!)

Love // Suchoo