Keeping Shut.....!!

Dear All

I happened to read an article which was a sort of memoirs about a Tamil writer - par excellence - T.Janakiraman. It was of course written by some of his close associates OR an ardent admirer - I am not sure. Thi.Jaa (as he is affectionately called during his life time and even now too lived his life so unassuming - this is for those who have never heard about him.

Well, Though I have read in many other articles / heard from his die hard fans that T.Janakiraman lived as a graceful human being inspite of his extra ordinary writing skills...a particular specific dimension about him was quite revealing for me in this article that I read.

It appears Thi.Jaa (as he is affectionately called during his times) desisted from talking about his creations after the same is published (rather written by him). He - I understand - used to tell quite often to his closer circuit that it is too egoistic and bit not professional trait to keep talking about one's artistic contribution. I understand, the suave and gentleman used to observe with a smiling face whenever he was facing some one who keeps appreciating his latest literary works right in front of him...once a while nodding his head without much words !!!! What a trait....and how much it overwhelms me....!!!!

Well, after reading this piece I was deeply pondering about my one particular fondness in writing an introduction to my poems (with a concern that it is understood by all - after all there are not too many - properly !!) and expressing my satisfaction about the written poem so vocally and explicitly....Some times even justifying this particular trait of mine...by equating myself with a kid who is quite happy and elated about his little successes..!!! (this is a problem in giving examples - we can distort things with our (mis?)interpretations, right ??)

Some thing struck me very deeply after reading this particular article and I fully admit the logic of the pointless-ness in bragging about our own creations. After all, if we have confidence in our expression, why to keep justifying / clarifying it ?? {I also have a self pity as I type out here as many of my poems are too subjective and cannot be understood without introduction)....Well, let me push myself hard to make my poems as objective as possible from now on....and try to AVOID writing preludes henceforth....!!

With this musings, I also announce that I will not be adding any clarification note to my "Old poems" as I am going to present them to AGANDAM readers in due course. Let me skip those "subjective" poems that I wrote from publishing and making you guys confused.....!!!

Yes, these days I am enjoying the stillness of silence in various moments of even a normal day. Let me make this policy decisions about my writing spree too....to evolve .... and to move on.....!! After all, as we expand ourselves with more activities and serious things to be done, its important we stay calm inside. AND with few initiatives at personal side, I am switching gears for much more active life from Jan 2010.

In bull's eye of any storm, its always silence....and in the stillness of silence alone Shiva, my beloved Deity prevails...!!!

Suren