Musings on "VERBOSE"

Dear All

Oxford Dictionary tries to define the word 'verbose' in following words.....WORDY, loquacious, garrulous, voluble, long-winded, prolix, lengthy, tautological etc.,

One biggest problem for great thinkers and scholars is that they will have a natural tendency to verbalize the events and situations that happen to them. I normally identify them as "Left" people or simply "leftists" who predominantly operate from the left side of their brain.

I do understand "knowledge is power". I also clearly appreciate the fact that in today's world dumb people and obsolete people stand no chance to gain a career - rather in personal front too - that they aspire for...if they don't expand their knowledge, think a lot, take decisions, form "opinions" ...and execute their visions.

I had always been a "right"ist. Day dreaming has not been my hobby but my full time job. I get into unexplainable mood swings quite often because of the strings that got attached to me like emotions, feelings and my expressions in the form of these poems, musings. Though I had been a confirmed rightist all these days, I do realise the power, potential and capabilities of the Leftists. Being in a leading position at my office, I take care to ensure that the thinkers of my team are fully engaged and more importantly recognized.

However, I some times feel aghast at my inability to express the value of silence and things that we gain / earn by being a rightist....the amount of bliss it gives to me and the enrichment in the very quality of life when we start appreciating the tiniest thing of life...and not getting dry with sense of logic and thinking...!! Many of my poems (even this musings) are a fallout of great inner feeling that I had had until now. The way I am enjoying the "moments" these days, I get a feeling I am going to dish out lot more poems in future..and I have just arrived as a novice with my limited scribblings in the past 2 - 3 years.

Being a verbose basically, many people tend to misunderstand me as an extrovert but they never know that I am a cocktail of both "ism"s - capable of spilling too many words at times and much more comfortable to remain still and silent in few other situations. I also clearly understand that this type of mindset and character that I am right now has not happened by own volition....but more a divine grace (or "curse").

When I happen to see some "left" side VERBOSE (just rubbed my shoulders with some one at office yesterday ...!!! ) I feel like crying and letting them know that there is a better way to handle this urge to share our experiences with the world....and the way we can use this powerful capacity of expression as a self improvement tool. Such poor souls (I mean "left" Verbose) get satiated with winning arguments with people around and feeling delighted about such petty things.

When the ocean of honey is available right in front of us waiting to be consumed, why to keep satisfied with "licking" the backside of our palm....as the proverb goes......

Well, I prefer to close this long musings quite abruptly....not because I don't have too many words within me BUT just to give any one who reads this musings a taste of feeling silence themselves....and not understanding it from my written words.

Krishnaarpanam as always....

Suren

ஷிர்டி பாபா

Dear All
In this blogging adventure (AGANDAM) - until now - I had been earnest to share some thing of value to the readers. Be it a poem or my musings, I had never tried to use this blog for venting out ALONE - until this point of time. For the first time, I am going to make a posting which is primarily rather solitary to cater to my "venting" out need !! If it still - by any chance - serves you any purpose, please thank Baba....not me !!!
Well, its quite a long story to tell you how I became a devotee of Baba all of a sudden....on that fateful day in Apr 2008. Perhaps it will be much more interesting to tell you how inconsistent I am in maintaining my devotion to Him but still, mark my words, He prevails !! To put it in different words, there were many moments in the past 1 1/2 years when I discovered that I am in good form (in terms of energy and mind) only when I see his photo / sticker some where in road or in some houses that I visit. I don't have an answer why some times (during my period of lows) I am not able to find him any where though I keep feverishly searching to have his sight....!! The purpose of this posting is NOT to justify or to establish how much devout I am but to share my feeling on how great he is.....!! He visits our minds and wins our admiration only out of his discretion (not sure If I can express this feeling in any other words !!).
Well, to put the long story short, there was a new Baba temple being constructed behind my home - which was an independent house earlier. I have been gleefully watching the demolition of the house, raising of this temple from the stage of excavation of the ground UNTIL today - the kumbaabishekam (or temple "warming"). Was in fact bit emotional thru' out the religious rites that were happening there.....trying to recall the number of times I have been paying visit to this very "site" during the construction stage. What moved me most was the manner the visitors to the temple today - I mean, the general public - reaching the function with a sense of belongingness in their best dresses and face full of smile.....as if they are attending some marriage or function of their kith and kin...!!!
A man who died (or should I say with lot of respect as "attained Samadhi") around 100 years, to see so many ... so many lives being touched and attracted even today... BY itself is a great feeling of reverence for me. Don't know how to finish this posting....!! Krishnaarpanam.....
Suren

"பரம பதம்" - ஒரு புதிய கவிதை

குரூரம் மிகக் கீழ்மை
வெளிப்படும் மிகப்பல கணங்களில்.....
அற்புதமாய் மிக்க புனிதமாய்
மனித நேயத்துடன் சிற்சில கணங்களில்....

பரமனவனின் அம்சந்தான்
ஒவ்வொரு மானிடனும்.....
பரம பத விளையாட்டுத்தான்
ஒவ்வொருவரின் வாழ்வும்...

சீறலுடன் நெளியும் நச்சுப்பாம்புகள்
கீழே வெகு கீழே தள்ளி விட்டாலும்
ஏணிகளின் உதவியின்றி உச்சியை அடைய
வீறு கொள்வேன் .... ஒவ்வொரு முறையும்....!!!

சுரேந்திரன்

Enid Blyton

Dear All

On Dec 14th I took my beloved little one (Madhoo) to LANDMARK to get her a gift as the following day was her birthday. Incidentally she also top scored in "some" subject in "some" of the test in her school (Not sure of details please !!So this visit was a two-in-one.

As we scanned thru' the book shelves, I was struck by the impressive collection of ENID BLYTON books neatly displayed in the book store. I always had heard that this author is quite good one for young minds but never had the opportunity (or took the opportunity ??) to read one until this age. I cajoled her a little bit and suggested her that she should migrate to slightly bigger books like these ones from now on from the typical children's stories that she is fond of even now. Bit enthusiastic about going to read for the first time a "big" book, she accepted my suggestion (it rarely happens..from both sides. I dont interfere with her choices normally AND she too is bit adamant about her preferences).

I keep reading the short stories in this particular book (there are around 50 of books in the same series in that book store by this author) and trust me, I am enjoying every bit of it....!! This writer writes stories in a very lucid manner and giving sufficient food to the creative minds of young children which of course captivated me too. In many stories, the toys and animals speak up...but there is a wonderful humane-ness and warmth that I feel from every story that I have read so far.... I really love this book AND wish to get as much books as possible to sweet little Madhoo as she too is quite glued to this book (....I also see that she understands the stories very well as she enjoys it....!!)

Perhaps, if this is being read by some one who has read tons and tons of his works AND mockingly smiles at me for such a belated review about an author who had remained in book store for decades, all I have to tell this person is...

"Better late than never"....

Suren

Keeping Shut.....!!

Dear All

I happened to read an article which was a sort of memoirs about a Tamil writer - par excellence - T.Janakiraman. It was of course written by some of his close associates OR an ardent admirer - I am not sure. Thi.Jaa (as he is affectionately called during his life time and even now too lived his life so unassuming - this is for those who have never heard about him.

Well, Though I have read in many other articles / heard from his die hard fans that T.Janakiraman lived as a graceful human being inspite of his extra ordinary writing skills...a particular specific dimension about him was quite revealing for me in this article that I read.

It appears Thi.Jaa (as he is affectionately called during his times) desisted from talking about his creations after the same is published (rather written by him). He - I understand - used to tell quite often to his closer circuit that it is too egoistic and bit not professional trait to keep talking about one's artistic contribution. I understand, the suave and gentleman used to observe with a smiling face whenever he was facing some one who keeps appreciating his latest literary works right in front of him...once a while nodding his head without much words !!!! What a trait....and how much it overwhelms me....!!!!

Well, after reading this piece I was deeply pondering about my one particular fondness in writing an introduction to my poems (with a concern that it is understood by all - after all there are not too many - properly !!) and expressing my satisfaction about the written poem so vocally and explicitly....Some times even justifying this particular trait of mine...by equating myself with a kid who is quite happy and elated about his little successes..!!! (this is a problem in giving examples - we can distort things with our (mis?)interpretations, right ??)

Some thing struck me very deeply after reading this particular article and I fully admit the logic of the pointless-ness in bragging about our own creations. After all, if we have confidence in our expression, why to keep justifying / clarifying it ?? {I also have a self pity as I type out here as many of my poems are too subjective and cannot be understood without introduction)....Well, let me push myself hard to make my poems as objective as possible from now on....and try to AVOID writing preludes henceforth....!!

With this musings, I also announce that I will not be adding any clarification note to my "Old poems" as I am going to present them to AGANDAM readers in due course. Let me skip those "subjective" poems that I wrote from publishing and making you guys confused.....!!!

Yes, these days I am enjoying the stillness of silence in various moments of even a normal day. Let me make this policy decisions about my writing spree too....to evolve .... and to move on.....!! After all, as we expand ourselves with more activities and serious things to be done, its important we stay calm inside. AND with few initiatives at personal side, I am switching gears for much more active life from Jan 2010.

In bull's eye of any storm, its always silence....and in the stillness of silence alone Shiva, my beloved Deity prevails...!!!

Suren