Dear All
After lot of thought I am venting out the tons of my wasted creativity throwing just the gist of what I went thru'.
I had a minor health problem and was hospitalized for close to a week and was "blessed" to be in ICU too for couple of days considering the severity of the problem..
During 2 / 3 days of my ICU stay, I had serious bouts of illusions / hallucinations (the definitions of wikipedia does not differentiate them much). ....in a way I had both of them and if only I can think thru' the experiences I underwent, it would be a beautiful thriller movie/
Just to give a stray example, I used to have a shot / scene where one of my first circle cousin (poor him, he was taking care of me during night time) dialogue was not audible to me initially.....but within few minutes, it will so happen that I will live up to the same scene where his words are also clear to me now and the mystery unveiled.....!!
Gosh, this is just a sample and I had lot more gory things which was experiential true for me which I had played an integral part. I am still not clear how much of the dialogues and scenes were actually spoken and enacted and how much happened within me........in my own world.
One thing is sure, I almost touched insanity without stabilizing there capable of getting back to normal senses with the help of modern medicine. For that matter, a substantial part of my illusions could have been reactions to the huge volume of medicines that I was taking inside too.....
Well, why bring one individual's temporary mental states to agandam.....???
Having realized that the substantial part of the experience was non real, I felt it is better to vent it out and make it a normal experience ....and move forward........
Chalo........!! Lets leave the past behind...
Love // Suren
After lot of thought I am venting out the tons of my wasted creativity throwing just the gist of what I went thru'.
I had a minor health problem and was hospitalized for close to a week and was "blessed" to be in ICU too for couple of days considering the severity of the problem..
During 2 / 3 days of my ICU stay, I had serious bouts of illusions / hallucinations (the definitions of wikipedia does not differentiate them much). ....in a way I had both of them and if only I can think thru' the experiences I underwent, it would be a beautiful thriller movie/
Just to give a stray example, I used to have a shot / scene where one of my first circle cousin (poor him, he was taking care of me during night time) dialogue was not audible to me initially.....but within few minutes, it will so happen that I will live up to the same scene where his words are also clear to me now and the mystery unveiled.....!!
Gosh, this is just a sample and I had lot more gory things which was experiential true for me which I had played an integral part. I am still not clear how much of the dialogues and scenes were actually spoken and enacted and how much happened within me........in my own world.
One thing is sure, I almost touched insanity without stabilizing there capable of getting back to normal senses with the help of modern medicine. For that matter, a substantial part of my illusions could have been reactions to the huge volume of medicines that I was taking inside too.....
Well, why bring one individual's temporary mental states to agandam.....???
Having realized that the substantial part of the experience was non real, I felt it is better to vent it out and make it a normal experience ....and move forward........
Chalo........!! Lets leave the past behind...
Love // Suren
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