Dear All
This poem is again special to me. Though I had written another big poem on this title, this one was compulsively titled as the same.
This small poem is special because it was typed out during a midnight in my cell phone - expresses the same message in much more crisp words....!! When ever I happen to see this poem, I feel over-joyed as my mental state could never be explained any better than this poem.
Sadhguru - when he talks about the seven chakras (or nerve center) during his lectures, repeatedly tells that one can get released using a chakra as a gateway - the same which remains as a entanglement until then. To interpret this differently, what ever happens to be a point of bruding for any one can also become a spring board for evolution for him - while it remained as a non-significant point for lot of others around him. This interpretation from me and this particular poem are my ways of dissecting the words of a great Master of modern times....!!
Here you go...
வார்த்தைத்தவம்
மிகச்சிறிய நிகழ்விலும்
விச்வரூப தரிசனம்
மத்தாப்பாய் ஜொலித்து
பேரிடியாய் அனுபவம்
விரல் தேயத்தேய
முழுவதும் பகரத்துணிவேனோ ?
இயலாமை கருதி ஆயாசத்தில்
நிச்சலனமாய் மாறிப்போவேனோ ?
Regards // Suren
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Friday, December 25, 2009
Musings on "Tambola"
Dear All
Today we celebrated madhoo's birthday belatedly coinciding with her Half yearly vacation. With around 3 dozen people at home - her friends and their mothers included - we played Tambola after dinner....!!
It never struck me so deeply - though we had played it during one of her earlier birthday occassions too - that this simple game had so much profound truths about life.....and here I am sitting to pen my thoughts on what I was thinking during the game - while it was cheerfully played by all of us.....!!
Well, there could be lot of other games - indoor as well as outdoor to make ourselves feel easy but the special charecteristic about Tambola is that it can be played at ease with large group of people without need of any specialised trainings.
Well the game is dominantly about luck but needs some alertness and sportive attitude as well.... True to our lives, I could observe that some chances were getting lost for few who were not listening to the voice of the facilitator while calling out the numbers in their hand....without realizing that this number will never be repeated again during the game.
For every number called out, there were few - a random few - yelling happily while lot others were sitting still longing for their chance to shout back revengefully. And it always happens that during the course of the game, every one definitely has the possibility to shout out of joy. There seems to be an eternal law governing the game where very few who were so unfortunate that they were rarely getting their numbers....balancing few others who had their numbers too often....!!
The craving of those who were in their last numbers was so visible and it was so wonderful that they are able to forget all their past miseries when they complete the game with a triumphant smile. Those who lost seems to clearly realise that its just a game that they lost and they are so confident about their chance if the game is re-started once again !!
The whole structure of the game is so simply designed but it is taken care that no one can consider that he is a champion of the game. Rules are easily explainable to any one; one can try his luck playing with multiple number sheets with him; one can withdraw at any moment....and can substitute any body else ...if he wants. Its upto the players' excitement level to play the game in a deeper way but it is also possible that the game can be played monotonously without any involvement.....!!
You perceive so clearly that your circle of control is so small during the course of the game but still it engages you for a short while. You clearly understand at the end of the game that you won because of sheer luck and never dare to carry the weight of success in your head beyond few minutes of happiness...!!
How wonderful our lives could become if only we are able to take it just as a game of Tambola ....?? Very true, this game may not be interesting for brainy people and hard working people....!! This is not an apple to apple comparison on what we should be doing with our lives - rather, its all about how we should be doing what ever we are doing......
I get a strong feeling (rather just a ripple of thought) that what ever we call as destiny - which many of us believe at various degrees of depth - is actually not designed in a complex manner to balance out things in our lives. It could be as simple as the game of Tambola...which seems to be capable of getting defined quite easily at the highest level BUT easily explainable at the micro level - if only one gets all the inputs about any thing that happens in any one's life, it can be understood as easily as the game of Tambola !!
Am I confusing too much....Just that I feel that I am getting too clearer....!!
Enough for now.....!! Thanks
Suren
Today we celebrated madhoo's birthday belatedly coinciding with her Half yearly vacation. With around 3 dozen people at home - her friends and their mothers included - we played Tambola after dinner....!!
It never struck me so deeply - though we had played it during one of her earlier birthday occassions too - that this simple game had so much profound truths about life.....and here I am sitting to pen my thoughts on what I was thinking during the game - while it was cheerfully played by all of us.....!!
Well, there could be lot of other games - indoor as well as outdoor to make ourselves feel easy but the special charecteristic about Tambola is that it can be played at ease with large group of people without need of any specialised trainings.
Well the game is dominantly about luck but needs some alertness and sportive attitude as well.... True to our lives, I could observe that some chances were getting lost for few who were not listening to the voice of the facilitator while calling out the numbers in their hand....without realizing that this number will never be repeated again during the game.
For every number called out, there were few - a random few - yelling happily while lot others were sitting still longing for their chance to shout back revengefully. And it always happens that during the course of the game, every one definitely has the possibility to shout out of joy. There seems to be an eternal law governing the game where very few who were so unfortunate that they were rarely getting their numbers....balancing few others who had their numbers too often....!!
The craving of those who were in their last numbers was so visible and it was so wonderful that they are able to forget all their past miseries when they complete the game with a triumphant smile. Those who lost seems to clearly realise that its just a game that they lost and they are so confident about their chance if the game is re-started once again !!
The whole structure of the game is so simply designed but it is taken care that no one can consider that he is a champion of the game. Rules are easily explainable to any one; one can try his luck playing with multiple number sheets with him; one can withdraw at any moment....and can substitute any body else ...if he wants. Its upto the players' excitement level to play the game in a deeper way but it is also possible that the game can be played monotonously without any involvement.....!!
You perceive so clearly that your circle of control is so small during the course of the game but still it engages you for a short while. You clearly understand at the end of the game that you won because of sheer luck and never dare to carry the weight of success in your head beyond few minutes of happiness...!!
How wonderful our lives could become if only we are able to take it just as a game of Tambola ....?? Very true, this game may not be interesting for brainy people and hard working people....!! This is not an apple to apple comparison on what we should be doing with our lives - rather, its all about how we should be doing what ever we are doing......
I get a strong feeling (rather just a ripple of thought) that what ever we call as destiny - which many of us believe at various degrees of depth - is actually not designed in a complex manner to balance out things in our lives. It could be as simple as the game of Tambola...which seems to be capable of getting defined quite easily at the highest level BUT easily explainable at the micro level - if only one gets all the inputs about any thing that happens in any one's life, it can be understood as easily as the game of Tambola !!
Am I confusing too much....Just that I feel that I am getting too clearer....!!
Enough for now.....!! Thanks
Suren
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Old Poems - Madhooo
Dear All
Getting connected to one of my earlier commitment to post my old poems in this blog in a systematic manner, here I am posting two poems which were triggered by sweet little Madhoo....
I always smile with contempt when I read about the cinema lyrics writer needing a "room" to write songs. Normally, it appears, they also insist about the room to have Air conditioner feature and prefer to have it in a hill station....Not sure how much these nonsense are true....!!
These two poems were written by me, standing under the big banyan tree of my daughter's school, couple of years back. The setting is this.... I had been there to accompany her for the Dance Practise in her school and was standing among the two dozen parents waiting for her to get relieved. Distinctly remember I was in casuals and did not have much money in my pocket....and to kill time, I was carrying THE HINDU which I took from home....which helped me only for a while.
When I observed little Madhoo in the stage with a sheepish smile looking at me with lot of self consciousness..trying to match her steps along with her friends, one poem instantaneously got formed in the mind....ney....bit in abstract form.
I was frantically attempting to record the words that flew from my mind, and quickly looked around, got hold of another parent, requested him to lend his pen...and scribbled down the poem "thagappan manasu" in the news paper first page (Yes, I mean it....I wrote it down atop the printed news items...hoping to some how retrieve the words after I reach home).....AND I did the same too - after reaching home....
And in standing position, I wrote a second poem too on the experience of watching the kids dancing in unison....which was later shaped up and made as "niruthyam"...
These two are special in my archives....because, I got a distinct clarity about thinking process and feeling process....within our minds. When you are on song, the banyan tree becomes an AC room......and every thing you utter becomes a poem...
Here you go.....Suren
தகப்பன் மனசு
செல்ல மகளின் பள்ளியில்
ஆண்டு விழா கொண்டாட்டம்
விடுமுறை தினமொன்றில்
நடக்கிறது நடனப்பயிற்சி !!
பயிற்சி மேடையில் கும்பலாய்
ஏற்றப்பட்ட இளம் சிறார்கள்
பற்பல முற்பயிற்சிகளால்
ஆடத்தொடங்குகிறார்கள் இசைவாக
ஜோடிஜோடியாய் குழ ந்தைகள் ஆட
கண்கள் என்னைத் துழாவிக்கொண்டு
துணை ஏதும் இல்லாமல்
தனியே ஆடும் என் மயில் குஞ்சு
இன்றைய பயிற்சிக்கு வரமறந்த
என் மகளின் ஜோடிப் பயலே !!
ஆண்டு விழா அன்றாவது
கட்டாயம் வந்து விடு.....
இன்பமாய் அனைத்துயிர்களும்
கூடிக்களிக்கும் ஆரவாரத்தில்
தனியே வாடும் மகளுக்காக
இறைஞ்சும் இந்த தந்தை மனசு !!
___________________________________________________
Poem 2
நிருத்தியம்
ஆயகலைகள் அறுபத்து நான்காம்
சிவன் காடும் தாண்டவம் அதில் ஒன்றாம்
பாவனையாய் பல உணர்ச்சிகள்
அர்த்தம் விளங்காத முகச்சுளிப்புகள்
சிக்கலான பற்பல உடற்கோணங்கள்
பின்புல இசைக்கேற்ற சில சமரசங்கள்
ஆழம் எதுவும் புரியாமல்
பாமரனாய் நிற்கின்றேன்
நடனப்பயிற்சி அரங்கம் முன்னால்
ஆனாலும் மிக உன்னிப்பாய் !!
சிற்சில கணங்களில்
சிறார்களின் ஒருங்கிணைப்பு
கொண்டு போகுதே ………
வேறொரு உலகம் தன்னுக்கு.....
இசை பற்றி அறியேன்....என்றாலும்
இசைவு பற்றி நன்றாய் தெரிகிறதே....
லயம் பற்றி உணர்வில்லை....ஆனாலென்ன
லயிப்பு நன்றாய் புரிகிறதே.....
ஆயகலைகள் அறுபத்து நான்காம்
சிவன் காடும் தாண்டவம் அதில் ஒன்றாம்
___________________________________________________________
Getting connected to one of my earlier commitment to post my old poems in this blog in a systematic manner, here I am posting two poems which were triggered by sweet little Madhoo....
I always smile with contempt when I read about the cinema lyrics writer needing a "room" to write songs. Normally, it appears, they also insist about the room to have Air conditioner feature and prefer to have it in a hill station....Not sure how much these nonsense are true....!!
These two poems were written by me, standing under the big banyan tree of my daughter's school, couple of years back. The setting is this.... I had been there to accompany her for the Dance Practise in her school and was standing among the two dozen parents waiting for her to get relieved. Distinctly remember I was in casuals and did not have much money in my pocket....and to kill time, I was carrying THE HINDU which I took from home....which helped me only for a while.
When I observed little Madhoo in the stage with a sheepish smile looking at me with lot of self consciousness..trying to match her steps along with her friends, one poem instantaneously got formed in the mind....ney....bit in abstract form.
I was frantically attempting to record the words that flew from my mind, and quickly looked around, got hold of another parent, requested him to lend his pen...and scribbled down the poem "thagappan manasu" in the news paper first page (Yes, I mean it....I wrote it down atop the printed news items...hoping to some how retrieve the words after I reach home).....AND I did the same too - after reaching home....
And in standing position, I wrote a second poem too on the experience of watching the kids dancing in unison....which was later shaped up and made as "niruthyam"...
These two are special in my archives....because, I got a distinct clarity about thinking process and feeling process....within our minds. When you are on song, the banyan tree becomes an AC room......and every thing you utter becomes a poem...
Here you go.....Suren
தகப்பன் மனசு
செல்ல மகளின் பள்ளியில்
ஆண்டு விழா கொண்டாட்டம்
விடுமுறை தினமொன்றில்
நடக்கிறது நடனப்பயிற்சி !!
பயிற்சி மேடையில் கும்பலாய்
ஏற்றப்பட்ட இளம் சிறார்கள்
பற்பல முற்பயிற்சிகளால்
ஆடத்தொடங்குகிறார்கள் இசைவாக
ஜோடிஜோடியாய் குழ ந்தைகள் ஆட
கண்கள் என்னைத் துழாவிக்கொண்டு
துணை ஏதும் இல்லாமல்
தனியே ஆடும் என் மயில் குஞ்சு
இன்றைய பயிற்சிக்கு வரமறந்த
என் மகளின் ஜோடிப் பயலே !!
ஆண்டு விழா அன்றாவது
கட்டாயம் வந்து விடு.....
இன்பமாய் அனைத்துயிர்களும்
கூடிக்களிக்கும் ஆரவாரத்தில்
தனியே வாடும் மகளுக்காக
இறைஞ்சும் இந்த தந்தை மனசு !!
___________________________________________________
Poem 2
நிருத்தியம்
ஆயகலைகள் அறுபத்து நான்காம்
சிவன் காடும் தாண்டவம் அதில் ஒன்றாம்
பாவனையாய் பல உணர்ச்சிகள்
அர்த்தம் விளங்காத முகச்சுளிப்புகள்
சிக்கலான பற்பல உடற்கோணங்கள்
பின்புல இசைக்கேற்ற சில சமரசங்கள்
ஆழம் எதுவும் புரியாமல்
பாமரனாய் நிற்கின்றேன்
நடனப்பயிற்சி அரங்கம் முன்னால்
ஆனாலும் மிக உன்னிப்பாய் !!
சிற்சில கணங்களில்
சிறார்களின் ஒருங்கிணைப்பு
கொண்டு போகுதே ………
வேறொரு உலகம் தன்னுக்கு.....
இசை பற்றி அறியேன்....என்றாலும்
இசைவு பற்றி நன்றாய் தெரிகிறதே....
லயம் பற்றி உணர்வில்லை....ஆனாலென்ன
லயிப்பு நன்றாய் புரிகிறதே.....
ஆயகலைகள் அறுபத்து நான்காம்
சிவன் காடும் தாண்டவம் அதில் ஒன்றாம்
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"Fire Ball" ::::: A New Poem
அக்னிக் குஞ்சு
தழலாய் தகதகக்கும்
வெளிச்சத்தை வாரித்தரும்
கண்களெல்லாம் உயிர்பெறும்
உயிர்களெல்லாம் உணர்வு பெறும் ....
அன்று அவன் அறிவித்த
அக்னிக் குஞ்சொன்று
இருதயத்தின் ஓரமாய்
சாம்பல் பூத்த நெருப்பாய்......
தென்றலாய் தீண்டிடுமோ ? பேரருள்
புயலாய் வந்து தாக்கிடுமோ ?
கவிதையாய் மருகி கிடப்பதும்
சீறிக் கிளம்புவதும் என் விதியோ ?
தழலாய் தகதகக்கும்
வெளிச்சத்தை வாரித்தரும்
கண்களெல்லாம் உயிர்பெறும்
உயிர்களெல்லாம் உணர்வு பெறும் ....
அன்று அவன் அறிவித்த
அக்னிக் குஞ்சொன்று
இருதயத்தின் ஓரமாய்
சாம்பல் பூத்த நெருப்பாய்......
தென்றலாய் தீண்டிடுமோ ? பேரருள்
புயலாய் வந்து தாக்கிடுமோ ?
கவிதையாய் மருகி கிடப்பதும்
சீறிக் கிளம்புவதும் என் விதியோ ?
Musings on Swatharmaa !!
Dear All
Academicians say this; Religions proclaim this...and modern psychologists too confirm this !! One's best comes out only when there is a perfect coordination of mind, body and heart. The poor students (in academics), immoral people (as per religions) and vast number of humanity stuck up in stress and strain (or any other psychological problems) are a result of the lack of this syn ch !!
But.....Let me also admit candidly that correct diagnosis is not always half the cure !! Yes .... there are umpteen number of practical situations one has to reconcile to himself with the facts of life and learn to compromise. Life goes on.... only towards the jaws of death - for most of the people.
Blessed are those who are able to identify what is that they should do, think and feel in their lives !! More blessed are those who are able to do some thing about it !! If rarest amongst human beings get this type of alignment in their lives, plenty of human beings around them will be really blessed . They become beacon lights for the world to follow, emulate and feed upon.
YES, practising "swatharmaa" is easier said than done....!!
Here is my latest poem which is very unique because, it is being posted within couple of minutes of getting created......!! My today's waking up in the night until this point is not due to my disturbed routine out of my night shift working. You can't peacefully sleep when you have a fire burning in the belly.
A Blood vomit of course could be a serious affair, but perhaps after reading the poem in the next posting, you will accept that a fire vomit can only be a sincere affair...
Here you go.....
Suren
Academicians say this; Religions proclaim this...and modern psychologists too confirm this !! One's best comes out only when there is a perfect coordination of mind, body and heart. The poor students (in academics), immoral people (as per religions) and vast number of humanity stuck up in stress and strain (or any other psychological problems) are a result of the lack of this syn ch !!
But.....Let me also admit candidly that correct diagnosis is not always half the cure !! Yes .... there are umpteen number of practical situations one has to reconcile to himself with the facts of life and learn to compromise. Life goes on.... only towards the jaws of death - for most of the people.
Blessed are those who are able to identify what is that they should do, think and feel in their lives !! More blessed are those who are able to do some thing about it !! If rarest amongst human beings get this type of alignment in their lives, plenty of human beings around them will be really blessed . They become beacon lights for the world to follow, emulate and feed upon.
YES, practising "swatharmaa" is easier said than done....!!
Here is my latest poem which is very unique because, it is being posted within couple of minutes of getting created......!! My today's waking up in the night until this point is not due to my disturbed routine out of my night shift working. You can't peacefully sleep when you have a fire burning in the belly.
A Blood vomit of course could be a serious affair, but perhaps after reading the poem in the next posting, you will accept that a fire vomit can only be a sincere affair...
Here you go.....
Suren
Friday, December 11, 2009
Musings on Plan B
Dear All
Expectations breed frustrations. Repeated frustrations lead to loss of interest even in life.....!! Any one wants to disagree at this stage ??
Normally when one is so committed about some doing about any thing gets dissappointed (at smaller level) or frustrated (when it is repeated quite often!!) when things are not happening the way it should....!! There is a very thin line dividing between getting "involved" or getting "entangled" and this musings is trying to bring a very practical approach to know the difference between the two.(as I have realised it emphatically with my own experience)
I watched Sadhguru in a lecture who lucidly presented the thoughts of Bhagavat Gita and with his usual intensity differentiated the two above terms...I was almost there in understanding the two words...BUT alas....never realised it with his level of conviction. Convinced myself that I am just a lesser mortal and it might be absurd in trying to equate his level of exposure to life with my mundane one....
The few developments at my personal side during current week helped me at least to imagine that I am almost there....to understand this in a limited perspective at least. What developments that I got might not be so important but how it helped me could be of immense benefit to you..so this musings...
While we are are doing some thing, if only, we have a plan B for us, we automatically develop a gap from the result of the current life (plan A). The mere fact to hold a dream for us as a back up and spending some quality time on it on consistent basis can help us not to get too much "entangled" with life. I am not talking about escapism here...and it is ofcourse important to develop a love (can I say "passion" in what we are in right now !!) but not a choice-less love. This is what my realization is..
Perhaps, people who are already into too many things might find this musings bit too childish for them...but, be aware that this has come from some one who was stuck up with one thing and never took any initiative to broaden the horizons until now...!! We start approaching our day to day routine work bit differently when the dreams within us keep working on us constantly.
Enough I think...for the day....!! Oops that was the second musings of the week ??
Suren
Expectations breed frustrations. Repeated frustrations lead to loss of interest even in life.....!! Any one wants to disagree at this stage ??
Normally when one is so committed about some doing about any thing gets dissappointed (at smaller level) or frustrated (when it is repeated quite often!!) when things are not happening the way it should....!! There is a very thin line dividing between getting "involved" or getting "entangled" and this musings is trying to bring a very practical approach to know the difference between the two.(as I have realised it emphatically with my own experience)
I watched Sadhguru in a lecture who lucidly presented the thoughts of Bhagavat Gita and with his usual intensity differentiated the two above terms...I was almost there in understanding the two words...BUT alas....never realised it with his level of conviction. Convinced myself that I am just a lesser mortal and it might be absurd in trying to equate his level of exposure to life with my mundane one....
The few developments at my personal side during current week helped me at least to imagine that I am almost there....to understand this in a limited perspective at least. What developments that I got might not be so important but how it helped me could be of immense benefit to you..so this musings...
While we are are doing some thing, if only, we have a plan B for us, we automatically develop a gap from the result of the current life (plan A). The mere fact to hold a dream for us as a back up and spending some quality time on it on consistent basis can help us not to get too much "entangled" with life. I am not talking about escapism here...and it is ofcourse important to develop a love (can I say "passion" in what we are in right now !!) but not a choice-less love. This is what my realization is..
Perhaps, people who are already into too many things might find this musings bit too childish for them...but, be aware that this has come from some one who was stuck up with one thing and never took any initiative to broaden the horizons until now...!! We start approaching our day to day routine work bit differently when the dreams within us keep working on us constantly.
Enough I think...for the day....!! Oops that was the second musings of the week ??
Suren
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Musings on Expansion.....
Dear All
Sadhguru Jaggi Vasudev - My Guru - categorically asserts that there are just two choices for us to grow inwardly....Either keep expanding or keep contracting....!! He says these are the only two manners we can attempt to merge with the ultimate. To put it in simpler and practical (is it really ??) terms, either we have to experientially identify us in every body around us OR we are capable enough to make ourselves too meek and humble that our ego completely dissappears and we can accept every body around us without any hesitation....!!
Though I enjoy his lectures and the clarity with which he speaks, I am still far off from feeling what I (presumably) understand from his lectures. In fact I some times wonder at the gap between how practically I behave some times against the mental state in which I sit in front of him.....!! As he speaks out of his experience, I am quite sane enough these days only to talk some thing that I feel and these postings do not stem out of my imagination....Trust me...
Well, the only thing that seems to be quite plausible and possible for all of us to do is to keep expanding on a continous basis. To be more precise, Expanding Circle of our Influence is some thing that I am enjoying immensely these days. Not sure if this is just one aspect of one of the spiritual experiences about which Sadhguru talks about....but I am sure that this is some thing which every one of us can try out and experience it for ourselves.
In repairing a strained relationship, in dealing a conflict situation with a calm head, in the ability of smiling meeting the eyes of an adversary, in the capacity of holding ourselves and enabling others to do some thing and help them to discover their potential, in the maturity to stay calm when its required and speak with conviction when the occassion demands......you feel that your circle of influence is expanding....!! When our personality expands, a queer thing happens inside us to give a feeling that we as a person is reducing a little bit.....!! The mind becomes calm and enjoys the situations immensely without even an urge to share with others every detail of your success....!!
Not sure if I am inventing a hybrid truth in between the two ways of growth Sadhguru is suggesting from his experience....Not sure if I have confused myself sufficiently to gather the guts to make this posting with lot of audacity....Not sure if I may end up with lot of beatings that life is going to give for me....
Today is exciting....too exciting with these little little successes in expanding my circle of influence.... In the bulls eye, Shambho prevails....!!!
Suren
Sadhguru Jaggi Vasudev - My Guru - categorically asserts that there are just two choices for us to grow inwardly....Either keep expanding or keep contracting....!! He says these are the only two manners we can attempt to merge with the ultimate. To put it in simpler and practical (is it really ??) terms, either we have to experientially identify us in every body around us OR we are capable enough to make ourselves too meek and humble that our ego completely dissappears and we can accept every body around us without any hesitation....!!
Though I enjoy his lectures and the clarity with which he speaks, I am still far off from feeling what I (presumably) understand from his lectures. In fact I some times wonder at the gap between how practically I behave some times against the mental state in which I sit in front of him.....!! As he speaks out of his experience, I am quite sane enough these days only to talk some thing that I feel and these postings do not stem out of my imagination....Trust me...
Well, the only thing that seems to be quite plausible and possible for all of us to do is to keep expanding on a continous basis. To be more precise, Expanding Circle of our Influence is some thing that I am enjoying immensely these days. Not sure if this is just one aspect of one of the spiritual experiences about which Sadhguru talks about....but I am sure that this is some thing which every one of us can try out and experience it for ourselves.
In repairing a strained relationship, in dealing a conflict situation with a calm head, in the ability of smiling meeting the eyes of an adversary, in the capacity of holding ourselves and enabling others to do some thing and help them to discover their potential, in the maturity to stay calm when its required and speak with conviction when the occassion demands......you feel that your circle of influence is expanding....!! When our personality expands, a queer thing happens inside us to give a feeling that we as a person is reducing a little bit.....!! The mind becomes calm and enjoys the situations immensely without even an urge to share with others every detail of your success....!!
Not sure if I am inventing a hybrid truth in between the two ways of growth Sadhguru is suggesting from his experience....Not sure if I have confused myself sufficiently to gather the guts to make this posting with lot of audacity....Not sure if I may end up with lot of beatings that life is going to give for me....
Today is exciting....too exciting with these little little successes in expanding my circle of influence.... In the bulls eye, Shambho prevails....!!!
Suren
Friday, November 27, 2009
Old Poems - "Penance with Words"
Dear All
Interestingly this second old poem pasted has a connection with the first one (MRTS) of the earlier posting.
I posted MRTS at my office Entertainment Board but I realized that so many (literally no one) understood what the poem was about...perhaps they could not decipher the title and get connected that I was telling about my Train !! This poem was written with certain amount of frustration and certain amount of intensity....with my Guru's grace, got some wonderful feedbacks (touching one was the hand shake and molten words of Ravi, the scanning personnel) to me and earned some unforgettable friendship....
Here you go....along with a prelude to the poem (without which you cannot understand the title of the poem clearly).
Think I should stop the posting here.....for today.....!!
Suren
Interestingly this second old poem pasted has a connection with the first one (MRTS) of the earlier posting.
I posted MRTS at my office Entertainment Board but I realized that so many (literally no one) understood what the poem was about...perhaps they could not decipher the title and get connected that I was telling about my Train !! This poem was written with certain amount of frustration and certain amount of intensity....with my Guru's grace, got some wonderful feedbacks (touching one was the hand shake and molten words of Ravi, the scanning personnel) to me and earned some unforgettable friendship....
Here you go....along with a prelude to the poem (without which you cannot understand the title of the poem clearly).
Think I should stop the posting here.....for today.....!!
Suren
Old Poems - MRTS
Dear All
This poem was penned when I first travelled in the MRTS or the "flying train" as it is affectionately called in Chennai. This is quite special to me as it is one of the extempore poem very genuinely written mentally while I was sitting in the train (clearly can recall that I completed it mentally before even the train came to ground level after Chindadrepet station). Well, though this note is a duplication, I prefer to post the screenshots of my original words of PRELUDE which I recorded when I typed out the poem....
Here you go....
There were two "thukkadas" too that were written on the same occassion...Not so impressed with myself, still I prefer to record them here....(much before the main poem)
This poem was penned when I first travelled in the MRTS or the "flying train" as it is affectionately called in Chennai. This is quite special to me as it is one of the extempore poem very genuinely written mentally while I was sitting in the train (clearly can recall that I completed it mentally before even the train came to ground level after Chindadrepet station). Well, though this note is a duplication, I prefer to post the screenshots of my original words of PRELUDE which I recorded when I typed out the poem....
Here you go....
There were two "thukkadas" too that were written on the same occassion...Not so impressed with myself, still I prefer to record them here....(much before the main poem)
Suren
Musings on "Flashbacks - anew"
Dear All
It has been going on in my mind for quite some time to post all my old poems with sufficient introduction about the situation of each of the poem....into this blog. As of now I preserve them in the C drive of my (not so dependable) computer and it will be much more safe to keep it here...
Yesterday I was just going thru' the various poems that I have been posting since Dec 2006 (the first of my "serious" poem was penned on the eve of my daughter's 6th birthday....!!) - it was really a pleasant feeling to see 50 - 60 poems that I have posted until now. Poems according to me is the most closest expression to the heart and got certain auro about them !! My writing style had been quite consistent in terms of subject (yes.... not much varied...again and again only oriented towards my abstract feelings more than about any material subject of the world) and - as I went thru' them - I got connected to the mood and thoughts of each of the situation quite vividly. In fact, the past poems are quite an easy tool to get connected to the glorious moments of the past and get renewed for the uncertain future.....!!
Well, here I go starting to post my past poems one my one....!! (Lemme complete this exercise within next 2 - 3 months....OK :-) )
Suren
It has been going on in my mind for quite some time to post all my old poems with sufficient introduction about the situation of each of the poem....into this blog. As of now I preserve them in the C drive of my (not so dependable) computer and it will be much more safe to keep it here...
Yesterday I was just going thru' the various poems that I have been posting since Dec 2006 (the first of my "serious" poem was penned on the eve of my daughter's 6th birthday....!!) - it was really a pleasant feeling to see 50 - 60 poems that I have posted until now. Poems according to me is the most closest expression to the heart and got certain auro about them !! My writing style had been quite consistent in terms of subject (yes.... not much varied...again and again only oriented towards my abstract feelings more than about any material subject of the world) and - as I went thru' them - I got connected to the mood and thoughts of each of the situation quite vividly. In fact, the past poems are quite an easy tool to get connected to the glorious moments of the past and get renewed for the uncertain future.....!!
Well, here I go starting to post my past poems one my one....!! (Lemme complete this exercise within next 2 - 3 months....OK :-) )
Suren
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Musings on "Farewell"
Prelude :: This posting is dedicated to the FCO - Coimbatore Team which gave me a raving farewell from CBE when I marched back to chennai....
Dear All
Since the computer at my home was not in order, I had to wait for 1 full week to see and hear the feedbacks given by various FBSCians at CBE. The first time I saw the whole of video file at my sister's house along with my sister and niece; second in my cousin's house along with their family. But I had the curiousity to see it all over again all alone at my home today after the computer got repaired...!! I was keenly looking into the eyes and the expressions of those who spoke in the video file; appeciated their feelings lot more than how much they intended to reveal it to the video camera.....!!
I put forth few of the revealations that I had in this "feedbacks" that I got.....!! Well, its a poetic justice to get so much of nice feedbacks to some one who has been so oriented in the art of giving feedbacks to people around - incessantly and intensely.....!!
First thing first, as I made a mention on my farewell day (which is 9th Nov 2009), its so wonderful to see that there is some recognition in this world when we offer ourselves whole heartedly to improve upon the culture of the work place. This "respoding" ability (courtesy :: Sadhguru) of the world is sufficient enough to keep people-oriented people like me to get moored to our roots.....!! Though I had guessed already that they are planning some thing big for my farewell, let me candidly accept that I did not expect "this" much of earnestness in organizing a farewell to me.
Secondly, symbollically speaking saying bye to a group of people / place is no different from saying a final bye to the world and leaving the body. The amount of satisfaction with which I left CBE is a sufficient revealation for me on "how" I should live for the rest of my life... so that I leave the world with the same mood and satifaction.....!! After all, they say only imperfect souls and people with deep longing come back to earth again and again....
{I really dont intend to tell this world is such a bad place to come back ....... Just eager to taste some thing else about which I dont know much right now !! It could be quite nice to be a celestial body for a while or permanently......What rubbish I am imagining....see !! I can equate this childish wish with my never satiable curiousity to taste new food stuff and to experiment, experience and appreciate those taste buds which I never had given work earlier.....!! Some people never change, right ??}
Thirdly, I do nourish a dream of making myself available in a much bigger way in the future....Its a clouded picture of a teacher to me as of now {though I am undecided on what I will teach - will it be Accountancy, soft skills or yoga.... or just life - as people like TT Rangaraajan describes himself about....!!} but honestly I dont have concrete plan about it as of now. This farewell is nudging me very gently but at the same time very fiercely to look deep into myself and my skill sets to push me into what I want to become - if only, I am serious enough...!! When I looked into the eyes of the girl who unable to speak up whats in her mind for a while ( I mean in the video file ) finally decides to tell me in her feedback "we like you very much suren !!", I see a strong possibility of being a likeable person to lot more people....!! The whole surprise for me is that this type of feedbacks came up not from the team members with whom I was talking a lot ... but from many with whom I have not interacted much.....!! The close circuit of my friends starting from the supervisor who reported to me never could gather themselves to give me any feedback....!! Yes, take it from me, silence is golden.....!!
Fourthly and lastly, this farewell gave a big thump to my self image...and as I rightly mentioned to my team on my last day (which is the next day after the farewell) about Gauthama Buddha's story which I heard from Sadhguru....I got a self confidence to do some thing about even if I am put in hell....!! Yes, what we achieve in life substantially depends upon what is the mood that we are in when we take up any assignment....and I am reaching a mental maturity with this farewell that ..... I am capable of being excited without any external reason....!! A brittle person that I was all these days - has gradually mellowed (or hardened ??) to be a personality who is mentally so tough and very hard to break....!! This did not happen as a sudden revolution within BUT the transformation over a long period of time really got culminated with this farewell evening.
This musings is in a way special to me....as I have vented out all my feelings about my current mental state.....and feel in a way very relieved and lighter....!! I am quite eager to watch myself in action from now on....and will be really curious if I can allow a slide from such a position...(Have you seen Indian cricketers batting second....many times they allow themselves this tragedy, right ??) ..... No resolutions !! No emotional pledges !! No tears.....from me....!!
Its all action outside and crystal clear silence inside...!! Can I....?? Will I .....?? Wont I......?
Love and Regards
Suren
enappadum
Suchoo aagiya....
Varakavi......!!
Dear All
Since the computer at my home was not in order, I had to wait for 1 full week to see and hear the feedbacks given by various FBSCians at CBE. The first time I saw the whole of video file at my sister's house along with my sister and niece; second in my cousin's house along with their family. But I had the curiousity to see it all over again all alone at my home today after the computer got repaired...!! I was keenly looking into the eyes and the expressions of those who spoke in the video file; appeciated their feelings lot more than how much they intended to reveal it to the video camera.....!!
I put forth few of the revealations that I had in this "feedbacks" that I got.....!! Well, its a poetic justice to get so much of nice feedbacks to some one who has been so oriented in the art of giving feedbacks to people around - incessantly and intensely.....!!
First thing first, as I made a mention on my farewell day (which is 9th Nov 2009), its so wonderful to see that there is some recognition in this world when we offer ourselves whole heartedly to improve upon the culture of the work place. This "respoding" ability (courtesy :: Sadhguru) of the world is sufficient enough to keep people-oriented people like me to get moored to our roots.....!! Though I had guessed already that they are planning some thing big for my farewell, let me candidly accept that I did not expect "this" much of earnestness in organizing a farewell to me.
Secondly, symbollically speaking saying bye to a group of people / place is no different from saying a final bye to the world and leaving the body. The amount of satisfaction with which I left CBE is a sufficient revealation for me on "how" I should live for the rest of my life... so that I leave the world with the same mood and satifaction.....!! After all, they say only imperfect souls and people with deep longing come back to earth again and again....
{I really dont intend to tell this world is such a bad place to come back ....... Just eager to taste some thing else about which I dont know much right now !! It could be quite nice to be a celestial body for a while or permanently......What rubbish I am imagining....see !! I can equate this childish wish with my never satiable curiousity to taste new food stuff and to experiment, experience and appreciate those taste buds which I never had given work earlier.....!! Some people never change, right ??}
Thirdly, I do nourish a dream of making myself available in a much bigger way in the future....Its a clouded picture of a teacher to me as of now {though I am undecided on what I will teach - will it be Accountancy, soft skills or yoga.... or just life - as people like TT Rangaraajan describes himself about....!!} but honestly I dont have concrete plan about it as of now. This farewell is nudging me very gently but at the same time very fiercely to look deep into myself and my skill sets to push me into what I want to become - if only, I am serious enough...!! When I looked into the eyes of the girl who unable to speak up whats in her mind for a while ( I mean in the video file ) finally decides to tell me in her feedback "we like you very much suren !!", I see a strong possibility of being a likeable person to lot more people....!! The whole surprise for me is that this type of feedbacks came up not from the team members with whom I was talking a lot ... but from many with whom I have not interacted much.....!! The close circuit of my friends starting from the supervisor who reported to me never could gather themselves to give me any feedback....!! Yes, take it from me, silence is golden.....!!
Fourthly and lastly, this farewell gave a big thump to my self image...and as I rightly mentioned to my team on my last day (which is the next day after the farewell) about Gauthama Buddha's story which I heard from Sadhguru....I got a self confidence to do some thing about even if I am put in hell....!! Yes, what we achieve in life substantially depends upon what is the mood that we are in when we take up any assignment....and I am reaching a mental maturity with this farewell that ..... I am capable of being excited without any external reason....!! A brittle person that I was all these days - has gradually mellowed (or hardened ??) to be a personality who is mentally so tough and very hard to break....!! This did not happen as a sudden revolution within BUT the transformation over a long period of time really got culminated with this farewell evening.
This musings is in a way special to me....as I have vented out all my feelings about my current mental state.....and feel in a way very relieved and lighter....!! I am quite eager to watch myself in action from now on....and will be really curious if I can allow a slide from such a position...(Have you seen Indian cricketers batting second....many times they allow themselves this tragedy, right ??) ..... No resolutions !! No emotional pledges !! No tears.....from me....!!
Its all action outside and crystal clear silence inside...!! Can I....?? Will I .....?? Wont I......?
Love and Regards
Suren
enappadum
Suchoo aagiya....
Varakavi......!!
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Bondage......!!
Hi
Many people misunderstand physical proximity (or availability) to be a pre requisite for bondage and affection....!! All the mental agonies and wails when we miss some one stems out of this misunderstanding. In fact, I personally have felt in more than one occassion that it is not really required to be close to the person whom we love...to love !! On the contrary, I had had experiences of dilution of the relationship when we are in close proximity of such admired relationship mainly due to too much of interactions leading to unnecessary confrontations / avoidable communication gaps.
The healthiest of relationship can exist only when we are in touch in mental plane. I still vividly recall the depth of my relationship with some of my college mates and school mates with whom no longer I am in touch.....!! The mere thoughts of such nice relationships are enough to get inspired for my today....! (very difficult to put this in black and white...I dont mean really mean dreaming about past....just get the feel and get moored to the present..!!)
Dont we know the art of not speaking to some one who sits next to us in office / college ? If this is practically possible, then having a bondage out of physical realm too is definitely possible at least technically, isn't it ?? I am not advocating spiritual truths of having relationship beyond time and space...but will not wonder if I am leading towards this type of realities which are bit far off for me as at now...!!
Loving all as propounded by all religions is only possible when we create a gap from us and our physical realities....!! If we are going to suffer for every little loss that happen to us physically, then how are we going to evolve further ?? I dont mean being inhuman to people around us...but just learn to enjoy their absences too as much as their physical presence.....!!
Too much bragging for today...Bye....!!
Hope I will be regularly posting from now on....
Suren
Many people misunderstand physical proximity (or availability) to be a pre requisite for bondage and affection....!! All the mental agonies and wails when we miss some one stems out of this misunderstanding. In fact, I personally have felt in more than one occassion that it is not really required to be close to the person whom we love...to love !! On the contrary, I had had experiences of dilution of the relationship when we are in close proximity of such admired relationship mainly due to too much of interactions leading to unnecessary confrontations / avoidable communication gaps.
The healthiest of relationship can exist only when we are in touch in mental plane. I still vividly recall the depth of my relationship with some of my college mates and school mates with whom no longer I am in touch.....!! The mere thoughts of such nice relationships are enough to get inspired for my today....! (very difficult to put this in black and white...I dont mean really mean dreaming about past....just get the feel and get moored to the present..!!)
Dont we know the art of not speaking to some one who sits next to us in office / college ? If this is practically possible, then having a bondage out of physical realm too is definitely possible at least technically, isn't it ?? I am not advocating spiritual truths of having relationship beyond time and space...but will not wonder if I am leading towards this type of realities which are bit far off for me as at now...!!
Loving all as propounded by all religions is only possible when we create a gap from us and our physical realities....!! If we are going to suffer for every little loss that happen to us physically, then how are we going to evolve further ?? I dont mean being inhuman to people around us...but just learn to enjoy their absences too as much as their physical presence.....!!
Too much bragging for today...Bye....!!
Hope I will be regularly posting from now on....
Suren
Signing off from CBE
Dear All
What to tell ?? How to tell ?? I never expected that I will leave the wonderful city Coimbatore within such a short span...but it happened !! Its not that I was in my "high" through out this stay...I had bouts of depression and confusion without which I dont typically exist....
But definitely I discovered myself much more during this stint and had touched my "high"s quite often in this period of stay.... I have too many things to remember and cherish about... !! Suren who came to chennai during Nov 09 is definitely not the same person who went during Jan 09..
Well, I still remember the moment when the announcement of my transfer to chennai was made.... The sweetness in the pin drop silence out of the disbelief and shock of the team brought in a big smile from my colleague, the Center Manager. When he repeated the statement again, there was a meek voice which bounced off " you must be joking !!"..... summed up all the mood of my dear team. What I was doing ?? Staring intensely at the floor carpet helplessly not able to meet any one's eyes....!!
On the same night - after reaching home - I penned a poem bit abstract....in my mind as well as in diary....which was not satisfactory any way. I think it was oct first week and it took more than a month for me to review it and refine it....and make it ready for your eyes...
Before reading the poem, let me gently remind you all that I stayed in CBE roughly for ten months...Here you go....
What to tell ?? How to tell ?? I never expected that I will leave the wonderful city Coimbatore within such a short span...but it happened !! Its not that I was in my "high" through out this stay...I had bouts of depression and confusion without which I dont typically exist....
But definitely I discovered myself much more during this stint and had touched my "high"s quite often in this period of stay.... I have too many things to remember and cherish about... !! Suren who came to chennai during Nov 09 is definitely not the same person who went during Jan 09..
Well, I still remember the moment when the announcement of my transfer to chennai was made.... The sweetness in the pin drop silence out of the disbelief and shock of the team brought in a big smile from my colleague, the Center Manager. When he repeated the statement again, there was a meek voice which bounced off " you must be joking !!"..... summed up all the mood of my dear team. What I was doing ?? Staring intensely at the floor carpet helplessly not able to meet any one's eyes....!!
On the same night - after reaching home - I penned a poem bit abstract....in my mind as well as in diary....which was not satisfactory any way. I think it was oct first week and it took more than a month for me to review it and refine it....and make it ready for your eyes...
Before reading the poem, let me gently remind you all that I stayed in CBE roughly for ten months...Here you go....
Monday, September 28, 2009
IDHUVUM KADANDHU POGUM...Shorter Version
Dear All
I always get amused about the intense moments getting faded away and diluted over a period of time....!! May be, because of my "blow hot blow cold" approach towards life so far, I have thought about my emotional instability more than any thing else until now....!! This poem and the two examples given to prove my point of impermanance - is some thing - I am sure will make you think for a split second....!!
Thought of combining this in the earlier long version poem...then, decided to make it seperate and here you go....
Suren
I always get amused about the intense moments getting faded away and diluted over a period of time....!! May be, because of my "blow hot blow cold" approach towards life so far, I have thought about my emotional instability more than any thing else until now....!! This poem and the two examples given to prove my point of impermanance - is some thing - I am sure will make you think for a split second....!!
Thought of combining this in the earlier long version poem...then, decided to make it seperate and here you go....
Suren
My new poem !!
Dear All
It gives me great pleasure to put across my new poem for your perusal. As always, the title was decided first...which I think is a statement connected with my God Man - Shirdi Sai Baba. Not sure he uttered it himself during his life time or people around him conceptualised his teachings in capsule format.....as per the poem title...What ever way it is, I like this so much....!!
We never understand the depth of words (for that matter, even the most common words that we use) until we experience them deeply within ourselves. I always had a doubt that Language is just a discovery of human beings and not an invention....MEANING people tried to form words based on their feelings and emotions AND the naming did not happen as accident (I just mean verbs and words relating to expressions / feelings / thoughts; To some extend, nouns too...but I am some how very sure about verbs....). Well this becomes altogether a different subject.....!!
{Well on titling of poem, it has always been my practise to start dreaming after choosing a title.....but I was dumbfound recently when one of my team member at office who writes poems (sort of pudhu kavidhay) told me that she did not have the habit of giving names to poems !!!} !! It was a learning for me on that day when I spoke to her....!! Such is the variety and possibility available to human beings....!!
Here you go....AND watch out....There is another shorter version poem on the same title in the posting that is following this one.... So, you have double treat to begin the week in grand manner....!! Sabaash...
It gives me great pleasure to put across my new poem for your perusal. As always, the title was decided first...which I think is a statement connected with my God Man - Shirdi Sai Baba. Not sure he uttered it himself during his life time or people around him conceptualised his teachings in capsule format.....as per the poem title...What ever way it is, I like this so much....!!
We never understand the depth of words (for that matter, even the most common words that we use) until we experience them deeply within ourselves. I always had a doubt that Language is just a discovery of human beings and not an invention....MEANING people tried to form words based on their feelings and emotions AND the naming did not happen as accident (I just mean verbs and words relating to expressions / feelings / thoughts; To some extend, nouns too...but I am some how very sure about verbs....). Well this becomes altogether a different subject.....!!
{Well on titling of poem, it has always been my practise to start dreaming after choosing a title.....but I was dumbfound recently when one of my team member at office who writes poems (sort of pudhu kavidhay) told me that she did not have the habit of giving names to poems !!!} !! It was a learning for me on that day when I spoke to her....!! Such is the variety and possibility available to human beings....!!
Here you go....AND watch out....There is another shorter version poem on the same title in the posting that is following this one.... So, you have double treat to begin the week in grand manner....!! Sabaash...
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Musings on "A Common Man"
Dear All
I had the opportunity to see Kamal's latest film (UNNAIPPOL ORUVAN) which is based on a Hindi Film which I enjoyed immensely not so long ago.
Kamal had portrayed Nasrudheen Shah's role AND has chosen Mohan Lal to play Anupam Kher's Role. Would like to pen down my views quite systematically as under ....
(1) Well, First things first, the subtleness of the original film is completely lost in this Tamil Film to put it bluntly...!! I can quote at least 100 examples to prove my point....starting from some visual shots, dialogues, portrayal, music .... and creativity too....This film is about too much of expression and explanation ...
Right from the basic things like the vegetable bag which is too visible with tomatos over flowing, Kamal's Water Bottle (which was missing in earlier film), Kamal smelling the sandwich before eating - I can keep quoting lot of other points in this connnection....but let me leave it there. The dialoges were too explicit and some things were too clearly stated by the expressive voice of Kamal (is humour really needed in the climax ?? Huh ???) unlike the majestic voice of Nasrudheen Shah.... Mohan Lal, I am sure would not have accepted to act this film if he saw the dynamism and equal weightage given to Anuphem Kher in the story line.
(2) The tempo of the film is strikingly so mild and too many scenes were too passive and inert ..!! I found the original film a perfect synch of the performance of actors, music, camera and editing.... Here, honestly there was no tempo thru out the film. Really unsure how this team managed it so consistently !!!
(3) Two things which I enjoyed in this film are (1) MK's voice instead of some one playing as CM, showing CM's house itself (Really surprised to see the gesture of our CM to have accepted to the portrayal in this film....I am sure Kamal approached him for approval.....).
(2) Sruthi had tried some good music in few parts of the film....However I feel that she got too excited when she made music for climax scene....!!
(4) In one sense, I do not consider this film as a re-make of the original film but can be told at best as Kamal's portrayal of a story line which resembles the original one. (He might not have paid any money to the original team for rights....It could be too difficult for them to justify that Kamal stole the story...).
The absolute silence maintained on the religious grounds in the original film (should have been quite conscious decision, I am sure) has been totally taken away in this film. This film is clearly about the anger of a common muslim man of this country !!
(5) The motive of the whole murder as explained in the original film was so simple and ordinary (an acquaintance / travel mate dying in a bomb blast) has been picturised here to be a gory abortion of a young girl...... (I like the emotion of kamal as he explains us how the abortion was carried out....Gave me a feeling that he is quite knowledgeable about the tragic incident !! Hmmm)
(6) Well, coming back to the first point once again, I really feel like doing a big experiment of just dubbing the original film and showing in Tamil to see if people understand cannot understand it......!!
But to be honest, the way people applauded in the jokes cracked by Kamal in Climax and few of the over- exagerrated scenes (right from the police complaint scene in the first few minutes....MY GOD !!), I strongly have a feeling that the DUBBED Film can become a flop....with alien faces acting. This is a paradox !! How can kamal act exactly like Nasrudhin Shaah and tell that it is a remake film ?? Some questions can never be answered....
Well, before I close this musings, I just want to add on this small incident. I spoke to a office colleague who too accidentally had come to the film with her friends. As I start typing this musings at a browsing center, I called her number to tell her a bye...as I did not spot her in the crowd at theatre exit. As I asked her on how much she enjoyed the film, her voice beamed with happiness and excitement which is because she had seen one of a master pieces of Kamal.
Having said all above, I really do not want to criticise this film for friends like her...!! After all, things get good label and bad label only by comparison. The awe and inspiration that Kamal generates on the people who saw his film first is AS TRUE AS my original excitement when I saw Nasrudhin Shah...!! And, I got enough maturity (immaturity ??) to imagine that I would have enjoyed this film definitely if I had seen it First (I have enjoyed Vasul Raja MBBS, Chalangai Oli and few other remade films already !!).
Let me pray my favourite God ...LORD SHIVA sitting silently as DHAKSHINAMOORTY.....to give me the semblance of sanity to keep quiet and enjoy others happiness !!
With me rocking at the highest voltage these days ..... I am sure I will reach this stage quite soon.....!! After all, with all my expressions - as such - I am more of kamal than of Nasrudheen right now....THOUGH I clearly see the power and purity of Nasrudhin's school of acting .... !!!
Krishnaarpanam !!
Suchoo Again...
I had the opportunity to see Kamal's latest film (UNNAIPPOL ORUVAN) which is based on a Hindi Film which I enjoyed immensely not so long ago.
Kamal had portrayed Nasrudheen Shah's role AND has chosen Mohan Lal to play Anupam Kher's Role. Would like to pen down my views quite systematically as under ....
(1) Well, First things first, the subtleness of the original film is completely lost in this Tamil Film to put it bluntly...!! I can quote at least 100 examples to prove my point....starting from some visual shots, dialogues, portrayal, music .... and creativity too....This film is about too much of expression and explanation ...
Right from the basic things like the vegetable bag which is too visible with tomatos over flowing, Kamal's Water Bottle (which was missing in earlier film), Kamal smelling the sandwich before eating - I can keep quoting lot of other points in this connnection....but let me leave it there. The dialoges were too explicit and some things were too clearly stated by the expressive voice of Kamal (is humour really needed in the climax ?? Huh ???) unlike the majestic voice of Nasrudheen Shah.... Mohan Lal, I am sure would not have accepted to act this film if he saw the dynamism and equal weightage given to Anuphem Kher in the story line.
(2) The tempo of the film is strikingly so mild and too many scenes were too passive and inert ..!! I found the original film a perfect synch of the performance of actors, music, camera and editing.... Here, honestly there was no tempo thru out the film. Really unsure how this team managed it so consistently !!!
(3) Two things which I enjoyed in this film are (1) MK's voice instead of some one playing as CM, showing CM's house itself (Really surprised to see the gesture of our CM to have accepted to the portrayal in this film....I am sure Kamal approached him for approval.....).
(2) Sruthi had tried some good music in few parts of the film....However I feel that she got too excited when she made music for climax scene....!!
(4) In one sense, I do not consider this film as a re-make of the original film but can be told at best as Kamal's portrayal of a story line which resembles the original one. (He might not have paid any money to the original team for rights....It could be too difficult for them to justify that Kamal stole the story...).
The absolute silence maintained on the religious grounds in the original film (should have been quite conscious decision, I am sure) has been totally taken away in this film. This film is clearly about the anger of a common muslim man of this country !!
(5) The motive of the whole murder as explained in the original film was so simple and ordinary (an acquaintance / travel mate dying in a bomb blast) has been picturised here to be a gory abortion of a young girl...... (I like the emotion of kamal as he explains us how the abortion was carried out....Gave me a feeling that he is quite knowledgeable about the tragic incident !! Hmmm)
(6) Well, coming back to the first point once again, I really feel like doing a big experiment of just dubbing the original film and showing in Tamil to see if people understand cannot understand it......!!
But to be honest, the way people applauded in the jokes cracked by Kamal in Climax and few of the over- exagerrated scenes (right from the police complaint scene in the first few minutes....MY GOD !!), I strongly have a feeling that the DUBBED Film can become a flop....with alien faces acting. This is a paradox !! How can kamal act exactly like Nasrudhin Shaah and tell that it is a remake film ?? Some questions can never be answered....
Well, before I close this musings, I just want to add on this small incident. I spoke to a office colleague who too accidentally had come to the film with her friends. As I start typing this musings at a browsing center, I called her number to tell her a bye...as I did not spot her in the crowd at theatre exit. As I asked her on how much she enjoyed the film, her voice beamed with happiness and excitement which is because she had seen one of a master pieces of Kamal.
Having said all above, I really do not want to criticise this film for friends like her...!! After all, things get good label and bad label only by comparison. The awe and inspiration that Kamal generates on the people who saw his film first is AS TRUE AS my original excitement when I saw Nasrudhin Shah...!! And, I got enough maturity (immaturity ??) to imagine that I would have enjoyed this film definitely if I had seen it First (I have enjoyed Vasul Raja MBBS, Chalangai Oli and few other remade films already !!).
Let me pray my favourite God ...LORD SHIVA sitting silently as DHAKSHINAMOORTY.....to give me the semblance of sanity to keep quiet and enjoy others happiness !!
With me rocking at the highest voltage these days ..... I am sure I will reach this stage quite soon.....!! After all, with all my expressions - as such - I am more of kamal than of Nasrudheen right now....THOUGH I clearly see the power and purity of Nasrudhin's school of acting .... !!!
Krishnaarpanam !!
Suchoo Again...
Monday, August 31, 2009
Musings on Paradoxes !!
Life is full of paradoxes....and wisdom lies in the ability to identify them and gracefully accept them with a smile.
Some thing which we think as a small mistake eventually turns out to be a big blunder. The reverse too happens... and with passage of time huge losses and calamities get forgotten completely. The beauty is that this holds good even for positive things of life too....!!
While most of us are expected to do a job - any job for that matter - with speed, there is always a need to have a check on quality. You dont need any great intutions to see the nexus between a mistake that happens and a re-work which will be needed to repair it up.
A batsman while trying to score lot of runs also needs to ensure his wicket is safe. Any common man who is rational enough would like to enjoy the pleasures of life but is quite aware that he cannot over-do it which can risk his life itself....!!
As I keep writing these words in the open terrace of my home during a midnight, I see the blowing whistle of a night watchman (Gurkha) who goes past in my road....in his bicycle. It is quite a paradox that his whistle could disturb all the people sleeping but no one really minds it.....for they know he helps them to have a peaceful sleep for the rest of the night.
Well, I am putting the whole thing in reverse.... Oops...!! With a still mind, as I hear his whistle, seeing the paradox, I started identifying all the other points written earlier. It could be too good to have such a still mind for a longer time... than what I am destined to - currently !!
I dont imagine myself to be a Vedanthi to be precise an Advaithi.... Rather, even Dvaitham is still out of my reach. But the duality of life - expressed as a fabric of these paradoxes is so crystal clear to me.....!! It is so seductive you see...
Suren
Some thing which we think as a small mistake eventually turns out to be a big blunder. The reverse too happens... and with passage of time huge losses and calamities get forgotten completely. The beauty is that this holds good even for positive things of life too....!!
While most of us are expected to do a job - any job for that matter - with speed, there is always a need to have a check on quality. You dont need any great intutions to see the nexus between a mistake that happens and a re-work which will be needed to repair it up.
A batsman while trying to score lot of runs also needs to ensure his wicket is safe. Any common man who is rational enough would like to enjoy the pleasures of life but is quite aware that he cannot over-do it which can risk his life itself....!!
As I keep writing these words in the open terrace of my home during a midnight, I see the blowing whistle of a night watchman (Gurkha) who goes past in my road....in his bicycle. It is quite a paradox that his whistle could disturb all the people sleeping but no one really minds it.....for they know he helps them to have a peaceful sleep for the rest of the night.
Well, I am putting the whole thing in reverse.... Oops...!! With a still mind, as I hear his whistle, seeing the paradox, I started identifying all the other points written earlier. It could be too good to have such a still mind for a longer time... than what I am destined to - currently !!
I dont imagine myself to be a Vedanthi to be precise an Advaithi.... Rather, even Dvaitham is still out of my reach. But the duality of life - expressed as a fabric of these paradoxes is so crystal clear to me.....!! It is so seductive you see...
Suren
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Turning Inward......
Prelude :: Never before I had made any posting in this blog / the earlier one which I had - with so much intensity as I have today. If it is incomprehensible after reading, the responsibility is mine !!
Hi All
Just out of seeing a movie "Kandasamy" where you get back entertainment to the full value of money that you pay for.....!! I had actually intended to go for the second time - a movie that I saw 2 / 3 weeks back (Nadodigal) just for the picturisation of one particular song (shambo siva shambo !! )....and was slightly dissappointed to see that it has run out of the KG theaters, CBE.....!! This particular film was going at two halls of the same theatre....and with a tinge of dissappointment, I got the ticket - telling myself....to take it easy..... !!
Well, Not an ardent fan of Vikram, but I respect him for the commitment and the intensity with which he gives himself....Had enjoyed Anniyan immensely....and could see that this film was a remake of ANNIYAN in slightly different shape (like murukku and seedai...for example)....!! The biggest difference was that the suspense element unveils itself slighty before Interval itself.....!! Being not a frequent goer to cinemas, little little technical thing amuses me too much and I enjoyed many parts of the film....for the intelligence with which these modern tamil cinemas are shot....!!
The founder of Robinhood character (or was it a real person ?) should be cursing himself for throwing open the floodgates of hundreds of such movies...!! He would have never imagined his character will be portrayed by a Tamil Film where hero (for a difference) shakes his heads like a cock....and symbolises pet animal of Lord Kandasaamy while taking up adventures.....!! I really took this portrayal quite easily, the innumerable logical flaws quite gracefully....and was stunned by the physical structure of the herione (Shriya) awefully !!! (I really started liking the polished aristrocratic femaninity of this girl...incidentally I have just seen one film acted by her so far- SHIVAJI. There is some thing too regal about her !! Blessings.....!! )
Well, In the past 15 decades, we have seen too many such Shankar films and I feel like congratulating this director (a new one??) for giving one of the big banner films for Kollywood. There were lot of intelligent things (seemingly !!) in the plots and honestly I could not understand few of them as I was bit stuck up with the little little wonderful things that I saw in earlier scenes (very typical of me....!!)
The most important point is that when I came out of the theatre I was as usual....with moist eyes and body shaking with sobs....which happens to me when ever I see cinema in big screen particularly when the film has a heavy subject. Well I put towards my thoughts below which is the main purpose of this musings...
Well, the dualism in economy...the widening gap between rich and poor..... is (projected to be) sincerely addressed in this film.....BUT, I see that there is a logical flaw in the whole design....(I had penned a poem on a previous film that I saw....AYAN).
So much money spent on this subject by itself defeats the very purpose / message !! All such cinemas (have you noticed this...all such films balance so nicely between being an entertainer and talking about some social menace so sincerely...... I have not seen any recent director telling that he wants only on of them...every one seems to want both !! They all have a easily understandable example of "sugar coated pill" hmmm !!) are again and again offering simplistic solutions repeatedly....in various permutations and combinations. With so much logical flaws, why is that the industry is not really ashamed trying to tell that it helps all of us for a temporary escape only AND that they dont really hope to have any miracles happened...!! After all GIGO is the eternal truth of life, isn't it ??
Every cinema watching is a yoga experience for me....and the feeling that I get today after this film (right now sitting in a browsing center to type this) is that...
All tools from outside might not really make any impact on us wholistically....!! They may give a brief escape / small satisfactions / put us in a feel good atmosphere....But the only option available for some one who really craves to be sincere is to turn inward....!!
To a great extend, I realised the MAYA of cinema today with me fully involved with the cinema and the same time with crystal clear perception about the whole drama nested around such escapes....!! I am neither getting carried away with these escapes at the same time see the beauty of getting entangled for a while.....and be focussed within myself....
I remain
Suchoo
Hi All
Just out of seeing a movie "Kandasamy" where you get back entertainment to the full value of money that you pay for.....!! I had actually intended to go for the second time - a movie that I saw 2 / 3 weeks back (Nadodigal) just for the picturisation of one particular song (shambo siva shambo !! )....and was slightly dissappointed to see that it has run out of the KG theaters, CBE.....!! This particular film was going at two halls of the same theatre....and with a tinge of dissappointment, I got the ticket - telling myself....to take it easy..... !!
Well, Not an ardent fan of Vikram, but I respect him for the commitment and the intensity with which he gives himself....Had enjoyed Anniyan immensely....and could see that this film was a remake of ANNIYAN in slightly different shape (like murukku and seedai...for example)....!! The biggest difference was that the suspense element unveils itself slighty before Interval itself.....!! Being not a frequent goer to cinemas, little little technical thing amuses me too much and I enjoyed many parts of the film....for the intelligence with which these modern tamil cinemas are shot....!!
The founder of Robinhood character (or was it a real person ?) should be cursing himself for throwing open the floodgates of hundreds of such movies...!! He would have never imagined his character will be portrayed by a Tamil Film where hero (for a difference) shakes his heads like a cock....and symbolises pet animal of Lord Kandasaamy while taking up adventures.....!! I really took this portrayal quite easily, the innumerable logical flaws quite gracefully....and was stunned by the physical structure of the herione (Shriya) awefully !!! (I really started liking the polished aristrocratic femaninity of this girl...incidentally I have just seen one film acted by her so far- SHIVAJI. There is some thing too regal about her !! Blessings.....!! )
Well, In the past 15 decades, we have seen too many such Shankar films and I feel like congratulating this director (a new one??) for giving one of the big banner films for Kollywood. There were lot of intelligent things (seemingly !!) in the plots and honestly I could not understand few of them as I was bit stuck up with the little little wonderful things that I saw in earlier scenes (very typical of me....!!)
The most important point is that when I came out of the theatre I was as usual....with moist eyes and body shaking with sobs....which happens to me when ever I see cinema in big screen particularly when the film has a heavy subject. Well I put towards my thoughts below which is the main purpose of this musings...
Well, the dualism in economy...the widening gap between rich and poor..... is (projected to be) sincerely addressed in this film.....BUT, I see that there is a logical flaw in the whole design....(I had penned a poem on a previous film that I saw....AYAN).
So much money spent on this subject by itself defeats the very purpose / message !! All such cinemas (have you noticed this...all such films balance so nicely between being an entertainer and talking about some social menace so sincerely...... I have not seen any recent director telling that he wants only on of them...every one seems to want both !! They all have a easily understandable example of "sugar coated pill" hmmm !!) are again and again offering simplistic solutions repeatedly....in various permutations and combinations. With so much logical flaws, why is that the industry is not really ashamed trying to tell that it helps all of us for a temporary escape only AND that they dont really hope to have any miracles happened...!! After all GIGO is the eternal truth of life, isn't it ??
Every cinema watching is a yoga experience for me....and the feeling that I get today after this film (right now sitting in a browsing center to type this) is that...
All tools from outside might not really make any impact on us wholistically....!! They may give a brief escape / small satisfactions / put us in a feel good atmosphere....But the only option available for some one who really craves to be sincere is to turn inward....!!
To a great extend, I realised the MAYA of cinema today with me fully involved with the cinema and the same time with crystal clear perception about the whole drama nested around such escapes....!! I am neither getting carried away with these escapes at the same time see the beauty of getting entangled for a while.....and be focussed within myself....
I remain
Suchoo
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Expressions of Joy - A new poem
Prelude : It was a energy booster to read Ganesh's comments... Thanks Ganesh. Gowri, it appears there is not just one crow around....!!!
Dear All
We had been to an outing at our office last sunday and the day was packed with immense joy and talents display by many of our team members. Since half of the team was newly joined (during last 3 - 4 months), I was particular on this outing and at last it happened successfully.
After reaching home, I had no other option other than to pen down a new poem which I had hesitation in publishing to my whole team....as it contains some thing bit controversial in my official position. Not wanting to change the content of poem (which is of course truth - just stated for the purpose of pinch of humour) , I decided to read it out yesterday to the Committee who organised the outing....just as a mark of my thanks towards their commendable work on this outing.
Here you go..... Forgot to say....The outing was titled as "Confluence" by the committee
Dear All
We had been to an outing at our office last sunday and the day was packed with immense joy and talents display by many of our team members. Since half of the team was newly joined (during last 3 - 4 months), I was particular on this outing and at last it happened successfully.
After reaching home, I had no other option other than to pen down a new poem which I had hesitation in publishing to my whole team....as it contains some thing bit controversial in my official position. Not wanting to change the content of poem (which is of course truth - just stated for the purpose of pinch of humour) , I decided to read it out yesterday to the Committee who organised the outing....just as a mark of my thanks towards their commendable work on this outing.
Here you go..... Forgot to say....The outing was titled as "Confluence" by the committee
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Musings after a BREAK......!!
Dear All
It appears to me as if it is ages I have got into my blog. When I finally came inside today {did you know some thing....I had forgotten even my password to enter the AGANDAM !!}, I am surprised that its just 2 months I have not made any posting....
Time is a great phenomena.....When we are not in proper shape, every day seems to be an eternity.....while time just flies off when we are in terrific shape. YES, I was not in my full form for such a long time and had almost forgotten that I own this blog...and there are lot of people with so much craving (!!!!) whom I am dissappointing....!! Even the poems which used to ooze naturally like saliva in our mouth just got dried up.... With a closed mind, all disasters are possible, right ?
Well, the rude shock to me when I entered the blog was that the number of visitors had just stayed at 400 odd figures which I clearly remember was the similar situation when I logged in during June 2009.
So very clearly demand diminishes when there is no supply. This is a paradox to the accepted economic theory.....and I still keep thinking about it.
A beautiful Sanga Kaala Thamizh poem rings in my mind which talks about no birds come near a tree without fruits in it.....!! Again, Demand is there only when we have a supply.
Is it that our culture not so modern OR modern economics so uncultured.....??
Just musing...
Suchoo
It appears to me as if it is ages I have got into my blog. When I finally came inside today {did you know some thing....I had forgotten even my password to enter the AGANDAM !!}, I am surprised that its just 2 months I have not made any posting....
Time is a great phenomena.....When we are not in proper shape, every day seems to be an eternity.....while time just flies off when we are in terrific shape. YES, I was not in my full form for such a long time and had almost forgotten that I own this blog...and there are lot of people with so much craving (!!!!) whom I am dissappointing....!! Even the poems which used to ooze naturally like saliva in our mouth just got dried up.... With a closed mind, all disasters are possible, right ?
Well, the rude shock to me when I entered the blog was that the number of visitors had just stayed at 400 odd figures which I clearly remember was the similar situation when I logged in during June 2009.
So very clearly demand diminishes when there is no supply. This is a paradox to the accepted economic theory.....and I still keep thinking about it.
A beautiful Sanga Kaala Thamizh poem rings in my mind which talks about no birds come near a tree without fruits in it.....!! Again, Demand is there only when we have a supply.
Is it that our culture not so modern OR modern economics so uncultured.....??
Just musing...
Suchoo
Saturday, June 13, 2009
My latest poem - 2 ::: "Rebirth"
Dear All
I am sure every one can relate to this poem at least for few of the proud moments in life.
Needless to say, I wrote this on a day which had more than one wonderful things happening and I had no other choice other than to write this poem to put it on record for me ...and for others too.
After all, a poem is never an invention of one individual. It is just a discovery of a truth which any one who reads can relate himself too....!! I particularly am quite happy about the choice of the most simple words in this poem....which came uninvited thru' my pen....!!
Enzzzzzoy !!!!!
Suren
I am sure every one can relate to this poem at least for few of the proud moments in life.
Needless to say, I wrote this on a day which had more than one wonderful things happening and I had no other choice other than to write this poem to put it on record for me ...and for others too.
After all, a poem is never an invention of one individual. It is just a discovery of a truth which any one who reads can relate himself too....!! I particularly am quite happy about the choice of the most simple words in this poem....which came uninvited thru' my pen....!!
Enzzzzzoy !!!!!
Suren
My Latest poems - 1 :: VeRumai (Vacuum)
Dear All
On a hyper active day at office - during last week, unable to sleep even after reaching home, I wrote these poems extempore sitting at the open terrace of my home at midnight.....!!
It is quite long that I have touched my diary which used to bear my musings on most of the days particularly when I enjoyed the day. This first poem got triggered with a realization that I had not touched my diary for more than a month now....!! Then, I impulsively picked it up and penned down this poem.
Well, the starting lines may appear bit boastful at the first sight.... I dont mean - in any way - reaching of any "peak" at office or personal life when I am giving the example of trekking.....!! Its just that I beginning to realize these days that with any amount of words we cannot really express ourselves fully well. I just mean that my feeling about touching my own saturation point of word - gloating !!
Without much efforts, I am noticing these days, that I am able to speak simple sentences consciously breaking down the complex / compound sentences that my mind forms by default....!! When I utter the key words of my message, I consciously ensure that I pronounce it with a stress to make the listener mean what I mean. In more than one occassion I have realised in the past couple of months that this method of conscious speaking works much effective than my earlier style of downpouring of words.....!!
There are too many meetings at office and it is so good that I am stumbling at the truths about communication just when I need them most...!! Before I start speaking in the meeting, I consciously enjoy the stillness of my own mind these days which takes care of not just intensity during the meeting but also the effectiveness / purpose of the discussion.
Please go ahead..
Yours.....
Suren
On a hyper active day at office - during last week, unable to sleep even after reaching home, I wrote these poems extempore sitting at the open terrace of my home at midnight.....!!
It is quite long that I have touched my diary which used to bear my musings on most of the days particularly when I enjoyed the day. This first poem got triggered with a realization that I had not touched my diary for more than a month now....!! Then, I impulsively picked it up and penned down this poem.
Well, the starting lines may appear bit boastful at the first sight.... I dont mean - in any way - reaching of any "peak" at office or personal life when I am giving the example of trekking.....!! Its just that I beginning to realize these days that with any amount of words we cannot really express ourselves fully well. I just mean that my feeling about touching my own saturation point of word - gloating !!
Without much efforts, I am noticing these days, that I am able to speak simple sentences consciously breaking down the complex / compound sentences that my mind forms by default....!! When I utter the key words of my message, I consciously ensure that I pronounce it with a stress to make the listener mean what I mean. In more than one occassion I have realised in the past couple of months that this method of conscious speaking works much effective than my earlier style of downpouring of words.....!!
There are too many meetings at office and it is so good that I am stumbling at the truths about communication just when I need them most...!! Before I start speaking in the meeting, I consciously enjoy the stillness of my own mind these days which takes care of not just intensity during the meeting but also the effectiveness / purpose of the discussion.
Please go ahead..
Yours.....
Suren
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
My New Poem :::: AYAN
Dear All
Life is becoming a roller coaster !! I am seriously wondering whether to consider 48 hours as one day for me....!!
Before you are beginning to wonder that I am becoming too entangled with life - which normally happens to any one who enjoys himself too much into his hectic activities, let me clarify that I am becoming more and more philosophical these days and every incident at office, home and things that I observe in street becomes a "trigger" to be related with some thing else.....!!
Well, being a person prone to becoming bit "inert" and go out of mood every now and then, I am bit clueless why my hyper action and extra energy keeps continuing for such a long time....!!
I happened to see AYAN in the week end....and contrary to my initial expectation (Yes, I agree...it was a "preconcieved" notion), it turned out to be a great experience moving me to subtler plane.... in more than one scene....
Its more than 5 years that I am beginning to see the movies (I mean TAMIL MOVIES......!! Yes.... I can understand your sarcasm) in new light....and able to relate them much more than real life.....!! This film, AYAN surprised me with the amount of little little things that I learnt about some field (drug trafficking....and smuggling) that I am not exposed to....(perhaps, real life smugglers hit their heads seeing the gaps in logic of the film..I just dont care !!) at the same time, towards the end of the movie, I was wondering with a strange feeling that I could not put it in words......!! It remained as a lump as I travelled with my family in my mobike until I reached my home. The first thing that I did after removing my chappels was to take up my diary and write this.......!! So much of a prelude for few lines in Tamil, isn't it ??
Hope you enjoy AYAN...the film, AYAN....the poem...and this "anniyan's musings" too.....!!
Here you go....
Suren
Life is becoming a roller coaster !! I am seriously wondering whether to consider 48 hours as one day for me....!!
Before you are beginning to wonder that I am becoming too entangled with life - which normally happens to any one who enjoys himself too much into his hectic activities, let me clarify that I am becoming more and more philosophical these days and every incident at office, home and things that I observe in street becomes a "trigger" to be related with some thing else.....!!
Well, being a person prone to becoming bit "inert" and go out of mood every now and then, I am bit clueless why my hyper action and extra energy keeps continuing for such a long time....!!
I happened to see AYAN in the week end....and contrary to my initial expectation (Yes, I agree...it was a "preconcieved" notion), it turned out to be a great experience moving me to subtler plane.... in more than one scene....
Its more than 5 years that I am beginning to see the movies (I mean TAMIL MOVIES......!! Yes.... I can understand your sarcasm) in new light....and able to relate them much more than real life.....!! This film, AYAN surprised me with the amount of little little things that I learnt about some field (drug trafficking....and smuggling) that I am not exposed to....(perhaps, real life smugglers hit their heads seeing the gaps in logic of the film..I just dont care !!) at the same time, towards the end of the movie, I was wondering with a strange feeling that I could not put it in words......!! It remained as a lump as I travelled with my family in my mobike until I reached my home. The first thing that I did after removing my chappels was to take up my diary and write this.......!! So much of a prelude for few lines in Tamil, isn't it ??
Hope you enjoy AYAN...the film, AYAN....the poem...and this "anniyan's musings" too.....!!
Here you go....
Suren
Monday, April 20, 2009
My latest poem....."The Brick"
Hi All
This poem got completed a fortnight back....but never found myself doing two acts together...that is - bringing my diary to office AND finding time to type out the poem in the diary.....
Well, I would like to recall on the self imposed goal in poem writing.....which I took on Jan 2009...I am happy I am quite consistent in all the 4 poems that I have dished so far....roughly 1 per month.
For any mother, even a sumaar looking child will appear like angel.....As they say in a proverb in Tamil. So, I am not the one who is going to rate this poem against my earlier ones.....
As literature Jaambavaans state emphatically, I too feel that once the poem is delivered to public, it is no more belonging to the poet...!! Shoot your feedbacks...I mean your comments....after enjoying the poem....
Suren
"Home Alone !! "
Dear Friends
I have completed close to 100 days at CBE living in a two bed room house all alone. Thought it is time I muse a little bit about this Home Alone experience. The impulsive title for this posting from my heart was "Get out !!" but I got connected with a positive expression of the same point reminded about the title of a Hollywood Movie.....Sounds much better, isn't it ?
Well, to introduce a little bit, this is the first time in my life I am being alone. There was a period I was in Delhi for close to 1 1/2 years but again I was in the safe hands of my elder sister who gets nervous even if I am late to home by few minutes....!!!
I know there are lot of bacheolers staying away from family but many of them either living in group OR safely cuddle themselves in a Mansion. I do not deny the bliss of the "co-operative living" or the "irresponsible living " respectively.
But....from my limited experience in these 100 days, I feel there are tremendous opportunities for putting our lives in proper track in many dimensions, becoming better time manager and mature as a better personality. As an individual, I always have a tendancy to get into mood outs and for the first time in my life, I discovered that I have to do few basic tasks about myself how much ever the depression is looming !!! I think I came out of the depression spell much quicker getting deeper into the physical activities that every house demands.
I cook, wash the vessels, wash the clothes, clean up the floors, arrange things as home, bring drinking water from ground floor....and perhaps if you are smiling reading this, YES Gentleman and Gentlewomen, I never have done all these activities for such a long time. I really enjoy every little bit of HOME ALONE life that I have strong hesitation to take some external help which is very much available here too.
Above being self reliant and getting out of mood swings, I also have been immensely enjoying the luxury of "wierd" living whenever I wanted to....like reaching office at 5.30 AM on couple of days, reaching home at 12 Midnight, experimenting with food stuff which is not normally done considering the majority's choice at home, impuslively going to a night show cinema....and going for long strolls at unusual times......!! I am not talking about a carefree life but a life that I can stretch the way I want to if I feel a need.
Incidentally, I read in an article in the magazine "Frozen Thoughts" about the personality getting shaped up by living alone in a different geographic territory for a brief while.
I dont know how long this phase of life is going to keep moving for me.....But I only know this !! Just in case it ends, I am not the one who is going to regret for it......For, I have involved myself with this phase - the sound of the silence and the power of solitutude - immensely.
Suren
I have completed close to 100 days at CBE living in a two bed room house all alone. Thought it is time I muse a little bit about this Home Alone experience. The impulsive title for this posting from my heart was "Get out !!" but I got connected with a positive expression of the same point reminded about the title of a Hollywood Movie.....Sounds much better, isn't it ?
Well, to introduce a little bit, this is the first time in my life I am being alone. There was a period I was in Delhi for close to 1 1/2 years but again I was in the safe hands of my elder sister who gets nervous even if I am late to home by few minutes....!!!
I know there are lot of bacheolers staying away from family but many of them either living in group OR safely cuddle themselves in a Mansion. I do not deny the bliss of the "co-operative living" or the "irresponsible living " respectively.
But....from my limited experience in these 100 days, I feel there are tremendous opportunities for putting our lives in proper track in many dimensions, becoming better time manager and mature as a better personality. As an individual, I always have a tendancy to get into mood outs and for the first time in my life, I discovered that I have to do few basic tasks about myself how much ever the depression is looming !!! I think I came out of the depression spell much quicker getting deeper into the physical activities that every house demands.
I cook, wash the vessels, wash the clothes, clean up the floors, arrange things as home, bring drinking water from ground floor....and perhaps if you are smiling reading this, YES Gentleman and Gentlewomen, I never have done all these activities for such a long time. I really enjoy every little bit of HOME ALONE life that I have strong hesitation to take some external help which is very much available here too.
Above being self reliant and getting out of mood swings, I also have been immensely enjoying the luxury of "wierd" living whenever I wanted to....like reaching office at 5.30 AM on couple of days, reaching home at 12 Midnight, experimenting with food stuff which is not normally done considering the majority's choice at home, impuslively going to a night show cinema....and going for long strolls at unusual times......!! I am not talking about a carefree life but a life that I can stretch the way I want to if I feel a need.
Incidentally, I read in an article in the magazine "Frozen Thoughts" about the personality getting shaped up by living alone in a different geographic territory for a brief while.
I dont know how long this phase of life is going to keep moving for me.....But I only know this !! Just in case it ends, I am not the one who is going to regret for it......For, I have involved myself with this phase - the sound of the silence and the power of solitutude - immensely.
Suren
Friday, April 17, 2009
WHO AM I ?
Dear Friends,
Let me forewarn you that the purpose of this musing is neither any thing with spirituality nor I got elevated myself to the stage of saints like Ramana Maharshi....!! Its just that I am musing about myself and what is the "real" me craving for......!!
Well, I did get couple of feedbacks appreciating my earlier posting on "Principles of Management". Some of you might have wrongly imagined that I am imagining myself as an "all rounder".....Huh ? Not really so. I am just a bits and pieces of all the three categories that I was talking about...
Some times when I am in terrific frame of mind, I become so creative and keep blurting new ideas much more than what people around me can tolerate.....!! I really dont even mind the irritated faces around me when the right side of my brain pulsates with ideas... (just to add, these days, I am becoming bit conscious about these things !!)
Similarly, there were some situations I had feverishly worked on executing some thing as I always like to race with time. But let me remind you that its not so always....Throwing out all electronic gadgets viz., wrist watch, cell phone is quite a normal thing that I can do any time I want.....So, I had been a great executor in practical life only when I am not in the "throwing" mood....its important to be straight at least when we speak about ourselves right ???
There are very few occassions that I have also been an all rounder...but let me repeat the adjective once again....VERY FEW. The whole musings was revolving around a personality whom I am working with at office who inspired me a lot and definitely I dont deserve - in any manner - to call myself as an all-rounder in the way I had penned the musings.....
Well, then, who am I ? Dont you think I need to ponder this deeply as I am inching towards 40 already..and my grey hairs are quite visible though I stand at 5 - 6 feet away from mirror ?
When I ask this question deeply and thinking it aloud...YES....seems I have some clarity. Let me share it with you !!!
Visualise a gun man in front of you taking a target, aims at it and hits on the bulls eye.....Got a mental picture ? I am neither the gun man who executes the idea of shooting (creative people) nor the bullet which dutifully hits the target (the implementors). Then, who am I....???
Do I sound really scary.....as If I am inching towards Ghost-hood.....?
Well, I think I am the trigger of the pistol (gun). The pistol as such is not even remembered as a vital part of gun. Please note that the trigger is not big enough to be labelled as an all rounder but functionally it acts as a vital link between creator and executor !! But, the main difference between me and the trigger of a pistol is that I am a proud trigger with a loud mouth.....like a child enjoying its own pranks with loud laughter not really minding about decency.....!!
Its great to be a trigger, believe me !!!.....
You know some thing ?? this is an excellent subject (karu) for my next poem which I feel like titling as "visai" - which means in tamil "trigger"........!!
Let it flow thru' me some day if shambo decides so....!!
Suren
Let me forewarn you that the purpose of this musing is neither any thing with spirituality nor I got elevated myself to the stage of saints like Ramana Maharshi....!! Its just that I am musing about myself and what is the "real" me craving for......!!
Well, I did get couple of feedbacks appreciating my earlier posting on "Principles of Management". Some of you might have wrongly imagined that I am imagining myself as an "all rounder".....Huh ? Not really so. I am just a bits and pieces of all the three categories that I was talking about...
Some times when I am in terrific frame of mind, I become so creative and keep blurting new ideas much more than what people around me can tolerate.....!! I really dont even mind the irritated faces around me when the right side of my brain pulsates with ideas... (just to add, these days, I am becoming bit conscious about these things !!)
Similarly, there were some situations I had feverishly worked on executing some thing as I always like to race with time. But let me remind you that its not so always....Throwing out all electronic gadgets viz., wrist watch, cell phone is quite a normal thing that I can do any time I want.....So, I had been a great executor in practical life only when I am not in the "throwing" mood....its important to be straight at least when we speak about ourselves right ???
There are very few occassions that I have also been an all rounder...but let me repeat the adjective once again....VERY FEW. The whole musings was revolving around a personality whom I am working with at office who inspired me a lot and definitely I dont deserve - in any manner - to call myself as an all-rounder in the way I had penned the musings.....
Well, then, who am I ? Dont you think I need to ponder this deeply as I am inching towards 40 already..and my grey hairs are quite visible though I stand at 5 - 6 feet away from mirror ?
When I ask this question deeply and thinking it aloud...YES....seems I have some clarity. Let me share it with you !!!
Visualise a gun man in front of you taking a target, aims at it and hits on the bulls eye.....Got a mental picture ? I am neither the gun man who executes the idea of shooting (creative people) nor the bullet which dutifully hits the target (the implementors). Then, who am I....???
Do I sound really scary.....as If I am inching towards Ghost-hood.....?
Well, I think I am the trigger of the pistol (gun). The pistol as such is not even remembered as a vital part of gun. Please note that the trigger is not big enough to be labelled as an all rounder but functionally it acts as a vital link between creator and executor !! But, the main difference between me and the trigger of a pistol is that I am a proud trigger with a loud mouth.....like a child enjoying its own pranks with loud laughter not really minding about decency.....!!
Its great to be a trigger, believe me !!!.....
You know some thing ?? this is an excellent subject (karu) for my next poem which I feel like titling as "visai" - which means in tamil "trigger"........!!
Let it flow thru' me some day if shambo decides so....!!
Suren
Friday, April 3, 2009
Musings on Principles of Management !!
Dear Mate
This is not a musing as a fallout of my recent promotion at office.....neither the "one pager" that I have been promising to some of you about "Leadership" for quite some time. The one pager is getting built up in bits and pieces exactly like how a leader evolves.....!! One important virtue of leadership is patience...and please hold on to have a glimpse of my one pager about Leadership...Fine ?
This is just a extempore musings that I am tying out as the words come to my mind....without the inordinate care that I write the one pagers....Well, I am sure you will find this interesting and thought provoking....please go on.....
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People who have studied in commerce / management stream cannot forget Fayol's principles of management. If I remember right it is one of his first principle (may be in the top three ?) about Division of Labour and Specialisation"...!! A non commerce student may find it amusing why we need a principle on some thing very basic....but let me gently point out them that these were evolved during the earlier centuries when the word Management or Organization or Corporation were unheard off !! Truely I have enjoyed the 16 principles or so of this gentleman and here comes my musings on just the one identified...
People can immediately relate to manufacturing environment and typical ITES , IT industry with "division of labour". People who are moored to practical aspects of life can also easily relate to home environment (where mother takes all the responsibilities and father takes the world's responsibilities...I mean..reading news paper !!) and social environments.
But, I strongly feel even in the thinking process, we can apply this principle ?? Shall I tell how....
Have you seen people with green hats in their heads...always dreaming and able to come out with new ideas...which normally many of us cannot even imagine about. Such people according to me seem to have a specialisation of Ideas.
There is a second group of people who are very committed and with an iron will....with a dogged determination of achieving the goals that they take for themselves. Call them implementors or executors.....or what ever.....I feel they are the hands and legs of the former group who symbolically is the brain of a body....!!
Now, with my corporate experience so far and seeing many wonderful personalities whom I admire and also imbibe to some extend, I have clearly seen there is a third group of specialists who are distinct from the above two easily identifiable groups....
when an idea is given, these people are able to think thru' an idea....visualise the future based on the idea.....set up a process of implementing as well as executing an idea.....and walk out calmly to implement the next idea that comes to them...they dont care about not having lot of creativity but they are able to take the ideas from others without any ego problem....!!
To me, this group of people is quite fascinating and inspiring...because they fill up the big void between "idea" manis and "action" kings .....!!
In cricket parlance, I feel the idea givers are like the opening batsmen who can give a great start.....and can afford to get out after 7 or 8 overs.....(I mean the 50 over matches, ok ??). It is the people with ability to visualise who can see thru' the score taking over from middle overs until the end. They some times even finish the innings but many times ensure that they are not required !! They are capable of living without limelight....
There is not so much brain involved in implementation - in my feeling....; I also see that the people with lot of ideas can afford to sit lazy and not participating in actual implementation. But both the groups are extremely crucial....as per "division of labour" principle...
But the inbetween group that I am talking about.....needs every thing and position themselves as "all rounders"....capable of doing both the other roles if needed.
That brings me to the last part of my musings....the definition of "all rounder"...Huh ?
Who is an all rounder, Gentleman....and Gentlewoman ??
Some one who is capable of batting and bowling if there is a need...but not doing both every time he gets into some thing. In fact, I would even go one step ahead, he should be able to just sit and relax within himself if there are very powerful Idea Manis and Executors around him who can take up his role substantially.
All rounder is not about doing...its about a state of mind...isn't it ??
Suren
This is not a musing as a fallout of my recent promotion at office.....neither the "one pager" that I have been promising to some of you about "Leadership" for quite some time. The one pager is getting built up in bits and pieces exactly like how a leader evolves.....!! One important virtue of leadership is patience...and please hold on to have a glimpse of my one pager about Leadership...Fine ?
This is just a extempore musings that I am tying out as the words come to my mind....without the inordinate care that I write the one pagers....Well, I am sure you will find this interesting and thought provoking....please go on.....
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People who have studied in commerce / management stream cannot forget Fayol's principles of management. If I remember right it is one of his first principle (may be in the top three ?) about Division of Labour and Specialisation"...!! A non commerce student may find it amusing why we need a principle on some thing very basic....but let me gently point out them that these were evolved during the earlier centuries when the word Management or Organization or Corporation were unheard off !! Truely I have enjoyed the 16 principles or so of this gentleman and here comes my musings on just the one identified...
People can immediately relate to manufacturing environment and typical ITES , IT industry with "division of labour". People who are moored to practical aspects of life can also easily relate to home environment (where mother takes all the responsibilities and father takes the world's responsibilities...I mean..reading news paper !!) and social environments.
But, I strongly feel even in the thinking process, we can apply this principle ?? Shall I tell how....
Have you seen people with green hats in their heads...always dreaming and able to come out with new ideas...which normally many of us cannot even imagine about. Such people according to me seem to have a specialisation of Ideas.
There is a second group of people who are very committed and with an iron will....with a dogged determination of achieving the goals that they take for themselves. Call them implementors or executors.....or what ever.....I feel they are the hands and legs of the former group who symbolically is the brain of a body....!!
Now, with my corporate experience so far and seeing many wonderful personalities whom I admire and also imbibe to some extend, I have clearly seen there is a third group of specialists who are distinct from the above two easily identifiable groups....
when an idea is given, these people are able to think thru' an idea....visualise the future based on the idea.....set up a process of implementing as well as executing an idea.....and walk out calmly to implement the next idea that comes to them...they dont care about not having lot of creativity but they are able to take the ideas from others without any ego problem....!!
To me, this group of people is quite fascinating and inspiring...because they fill up the big void between "idea" manis and "action" kings .....!!
In cricket parlance, I feel the idea givers are like the opening batsmen who can give a great start.....and can afford to get out after 7 or 8 overs.....(I mean the 50 over matches, ok ??). It is the people with ability to visualise who can see thru' the score taking over from middle overs until the end. They some times even finish the innings but many times ensure that they are not required !! They are capable of living without limelight....
There is not so much brain involved in implementation - in my feeling....; I also see that the people with lot of ideas can afford to sit lazy and not participating in actual implementation. But both the groups are extremely crucial....as per "division of labour" principle...
But the inbetween group that I am talking about.....needs every thing and position themselves as "all rounders"....capable of doing both the other roles if needed.
That brings me to the last part of my musings....the definition of "all rounder"...Huh ?
Who is an all rounder, Gentleman....and Gentlewoman ??
Some one who is capable of batting and bowling if there is a need...but not doing both every time he gets into some thing. In fact, I would even go one step ahead, he should be able to just sit and relax within himself if there are very powerful Idea Manis and Executors around him who can take up his role substantially.
All rounder is not about doing...its about a state of mind...isn't it ??
Suren
My new poem.......
Dear All
I proudly present my new poem to you......
After every poem that I write, I feel so complete that some times I strongly suspect if I am going to dry out.....only to come up with the next more satisfactory experience to follow up.
I penned this one sitting at Isha under a tree last saturday where I spent my whole day. I methodically wrote my goals at office and at person...for the next quarter and then with a sudden spurt of idea, wrote this with little effort.......
Not sure if I am supposed to "muse" before a poem.....while a poem is a musing by itself....!! Well, it will be really nice to become a poem myself.....instead of being a writer......What do you say ????
Please go on.....
I proudly present my new poem to you......
After every poem that I write, I feel so complete that some times I strongly suspect if I am going to dry out.....only to come up with the next more satisfactory experience to follow up.
I penned this one sitting at Isha under a tree last saturday where I spent my whole day. I methodically wrote my goals at office and at person...for the next quarter and then with a sudden spurt of idea, wrote this with little effort.......
Not sure if I am supposed to "muse" before a poem.....while a poem is a musing by itself....!! Well, it will be really nice to become a poem myself.....instead of being a writer......What do you say ????
Please go on.....
Friday, March 20, 2009
Musings on “Feedbacks”
PRELUDE :: Oxford Dictionary gives the meaning of the word synonym as “a word or phrase that means exactly or nearly the same as another in the same language”. Intuitively I also checked up the same in Webster’s Thesaurus which gives the synonym, related words, antonym and “near” antonym for so many words…..Alas….it gives none of these to the word synonym itself…..!! Is this what “taking things for granted” means !!!
Well, Let me start of my this week’s musings with a small incident that happened in one of the training sessions that I handled last year. I am a part time trainer at office and the more important thing is that I am passionate about it. Noticing that (some times) the Feedback forms are filled up quite superficially due to the hurry to leave, I take some time to explain the importance of “feedbacks” at the end of the session with a request to complete all the details as is required in the form. In this particular session, I found a team member leaving the last column (intended to capture the overall feedback about the session) blank while she handed over the form to me. I candidly requested her to fill it up too; she responded with a cheerful smile that she did not have “any comments” obviously meaning “negative feedback”. I patiently smiled at her and asked her to write it exactly and give back the form.
This little incident pushed me to deep thoughts and I was wondering the distortions that happen to the usage of words with wrong understanding formed about them. Like the word “Naatram” in Tamil which essentially means smell (YES, only “DhurNaatram” means Bad smell), based on the consistent wrong usage of many people around, the younger generation strongly believes that “Naatram” means bad smell!! Yes, this girl has clearly misconstrued the meaning of “comment” as some thing negative!
Now let me put forth my understanding on few related words in the same context – Opinion, Comments, Feedbacks and Suggestions. While all these four words involve thought process on the inputs through our sense organs, I feel there is some essential difference between the first two and the last two. While opinions and comments can be passed on to some body else too, the latter two words denote the communication to the feeder of our inputs. There is a clear dividing line here.
Opinions are formed within us (“abipraayam”) while Comments are expressed opinions (“Karuthu”). There is a possibility I may have a opinion on some subject but never pass comment about it. Honestly I do not find any other difference between these two words.
Between the other two words, Feedback is giving our comment to the right recipient “as is” while Suggestions is giving our comments on “how better”.
Forming an opinion is some thing that we always do when we are emotionally or sentimentally involved in any subject but we always have an option of the other three (C, F and S). While expressing, I feel the order above is quite perfect to indicate how much evolved we are. Mediocre people pass comments; Sensible people give Feedbacks while empathetic people offer suggestions for improvement. I do understand "giving suggestions" is not possible all the times – particularly when we do not have expertise about the subject matter; Giving feedbacks is by itself an art and needs a separate musings. But that does mean “comment” is superior to them any way……?
Now I want to conclude this musings with a question to ponder…Why don’t the BLOG world change the “comment” field as “feedback” field ? If not others, I would prefer to have this with this term as this is MY blog.
Well…. when I say, MY blog and MY body I mean them in the active present. I do realize that every thing that is created has an expiry date. For that matter, wise people always say that Death does not touch some one who is in constant memory of it.
Well, Let me start of my this week’s musings with a small incident that happened in one of the training sessions that I handled last year. I am a part time trainer at office and the more important thing is that I am passionate about it. Noticing that (some times) the Feedback forms are filled up quite superficially due to the hurry to leave, I take some time to explain the importance of “feedbacks” at the end of the session with a request to complete all the details as is required in the form. In this particular session, I found a team member leaving the last column (intended to capture the overall feedback about the session) blank while she handed over the form to me. I candidly requested her to fill it up too; she responded with a cheerful smile that she did not have “any comments” obviously meaning “negative feedback”. I patiently smiled at her and asked her to write it exactly and give back the form.
This little incident pushed me to deep thoughts and I was wondering the distortions that happen to the usage of words with wrong understanding formed about them. Like the word “Naatram” in Tamil which essentially means smell (YES, only “DhurNaatram” means Bad smell), based on the consistent wrong usage of many people around, the younger generation strongly believes that “Naatram” means bad smell!! Yes, this girl has clearly misconstrued the meaning of “comment” as some thing negative!
Now let me put forth my understanding on few related words in the same context – Opinion, Comments, Feedbacks and Suggestions. While all these four words involve thought process on the inputs through our sense organs, I feel there is some essential difference between the first two and the last two. While opinions and comments can be passed on to some body else too, the latter two words denote the communication to the feeder of our inputs. There is a clear dividing line here.
Opinions are formed within us (“abipraayam”) while Comments are expressed opinions (“Karuthu”). There is a possibility I may have a opinion on some subject but never pass comment about it. Honestly I do not find any other difference between these two words.
Between the other two words, Feedback is giving our comment to the right recipient “as is” while Suggestions is giving our comments on “how better”.
Forming an opinion is some thing that we always do when we are emotionally or sentimentally involved in any subject but we always have an option of the other three (C, F and S). While expressing, I feel the order above is quite perfect to indicate how much evolved we are. Mediocre people pass comments; Sensible people give Feedbacks while empathetic people offer suggestions for improvement. I do understand "giving suggestions" is not possible all the times – particularly when we do not have expertise about the subject matter; Giving feedbacks is by itself an art and needs a separate musings. But that does mean “comment” is superior to them any way……?
Now I want to conclude this musings with a question to ponder…Why don’t the BLOG world change the “comment” field as “feedback” field ? If not others, I would prefer to have this with this term as this is MY blog.
Well…. when I say, MY blog and MY body I mean them in the active present. I do realize that every thing that is created has an expiry date. For that matter, wise people always say that Death does not touch some one who is in constant memory of it.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Musings on Parenting
"One Pagers" are my expressions which spring out pre-dominantly from left side of my brain. Normally extempore and bit careless about the mistakes that I commit while expressing myself in my poems and musings, I take lot of care when I post these one pagers. These one pagers are put across to you to the best of my abilities and vocabulary without any snags. Spelling, grammar, sentence & paragraph formation are re-checked again and again along with lot of concern about not committing any factual errors. Though I have been writing lot of simple topics all these days – over a period of time - I intend to write about few subjects like Mysticism, Etymology, Mathematics etc.,
I call these expressions as ONE PAGERS because, there is a goal taken for such pieces...that it will be exactly One page at A4 size - with Ariel Font 10.
Well, the next to follow this particular one pager is on "Leadership"; it could be sort ofsequel to the current topic "Parenting"; Go ahead please……
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I call these expressions as ONE PAGERS because, there is a goal taken for such pieces...that it will be exactly One page at A4 size - with Ariel Font 10.
Well, the next to follow this particular one pager is on "Leadership"; it could be sort ofsequel to the current topic "Parenting"; Go ahead please……
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Parenting
Refer any dictionary available to you, you will find the term “parent” will be inadequately explained. Few powerful words which actually symbolise some finer feelings are not properly defined by Dictionaries and inadequately described by thesauruses. To call ourselves really literate we need to dig up our minds and hearts a little bit to compliment these external aids. Let us consider the word “parenting” in this one pager.
Simply put, a parent is some one who gives birth to a child (in case of female) or being responsible for it (in case of male). Is that all? Slightly evolved minds will immediately add that a parent is not some one who just reproduces but takes care for the growth and evolution of next generation. But then, is every parent whom we know fits into this extended definition? To look at the other side, is some one who is impotent cursed not to become a parent?
So much of emotional and sentimental values are attached to parenthood that I have thought several times before making the following statements. There are few parents who are too possessive about their children. Some of them are bit impractical (“All well should happen for their children all times"). Few of them are even bit calculative and do not mind cursing their own children when the investments they have made, is threatened to go waste (children leaving the roots for ever, Love marriages - to name a couple of instances). Now if you feel like objecting that these are exceptions and does not any dilute the importance and nobility of a "parent", hold on for a second, the idea was to take a complete view of the terminology. Let us try to accept the realities though we are lucky enough to be blessed with better parents for ourselves.
Let us ask ourselves a simple question – how do we react when we are not blessed with "matured" parents (as defined by us)?
Of course, the first impulsive resolution all of us naturally is to "some how tolerate them" and "not becoming like them" when we become parents eventually. Perhaps we may even end up as an idealistic parent (as per our own standards) in due course. The question that I would like to raise thru' this one pager is "should we wait to practise those things that we admire until we actually become biological parent?
The first of the thing that we can do right now is to accept our parents as they are!
Communication too has its own limits and instead of getting into an argument or persuasive explanation, we can engineer ourselves to elevate ourselves to be a graceful parent to them in turn!
Want some more room to experiment?
There are enough tortured souls around us who still long for the warmth of their mother's womb unable to stand the heat of lives. If only we can make ourselves as a pleasant shady tree for a while to such beings, it could be an unforgettable experience to us more than those grateful people. I am sure every one of us has at least few pleasant memories getting triggered in these lines - when we have received a grateful recognition from some one whom we helped at some point of time. Being in a parent can be explaining symbolically as being a shade giving tree – not out of any compulsions, external or internal, - but as our intrinsic nature.
If we look at this one way, we are slightly more blessed than a tree – we have too many options to do based on our choice and area of interest – be it working for some poverty alleviation project or literacy movements or working for the well being of other forms of lives.
In another way, there is no need to go in search of any new initiatives. Simply being graceful to people around us, providing them the nourishment they need - can alone constitute full fledged parenting.
For that matter, parenting is not about doing or thinking or feeling….it is just about “being”!
For that matter, all that we can physically do, think about and feel for has a saturation point, right? With a very little practical wisdom, every one will come to realise that "being" a parent has no saturation point at all.
Being a parent is actually a mindset and if at all we are grateful to our own parents, it is because, they had demonstrated this mindset once a while – may not be always – which could be some times quite unconsciously too.
As explained earlier too, there is really no need for us to become a “biological” parent to consciously practise what our parents and forefathers have done. It is really a mystery why impotency is a subject of so much pain and mental suffocation to many couples who are not blessed with a child.
The greatest tragedy of modern world is that we have huge deficit of “parent” mindset. Particularly in our country, since we have thoroughly misunderstood the virtues of being a parent as though it means “physical parenting”, we have become such an overpopulated country. The beauty of becoming a "mental" parent is that you will naturally start triggering lot of such parents around you.
Last but not the least, becoming a “mental” parent can be instantaneous without painful waiting period of 9 months or so! Happy Parenting…..!!
Refer any dictionary available to you, you will find the term “parent” will be inadequately explained. Few powerful words which actually symbolise some finer feelings are not properly defined by Dictionaries and inadequately described by thesauruses. To call ourselves really literate we need to dig up our minds and hearts a little bit to compliment these external aids. Let us consider the word “parenting” in this one pager.
Simply put, a parent is some one who gives birth to a child (in case of female) or being responsible for it (in case of male). Is that all? Slightly evolved minds will immediately add that a parent is not some one who just reproduces but takes care for the growth and evolution of next generation. But then, is every parent whom we know fits into this extended definition? To look at the other side, is some one who is impotent cursed not to become a parent?
So much of emotional and sentimental values are attached to parenthood that I have thought several times before making the following statements. There are few parents who are too possessive about their children. Some of them are bit impractical (“All well should happen for their children all times"). Few of them are even bit calculative and do not mind cursing their own children when the investments they have made, is threatened to go waste (children leaving the roots for ever, Love marriages - to name a couple of instances). Now if you feel like objecting that these are exceptions and does not any dilute the importance and nobility of a "parent", hold on for a second, the idea was to take a complete view of the terminology. Let us try to accept the realities though we are lucky enough to be blessed with better parents for ourselves.
Let us ask ourselves a simple question – how do we react when we are not blessed with "matured" parents (as defined by us)?
Of course, the first impulsive resolution all of us naturally is to "some how tolerate them" and "not becoming like them" when we become parents eventually. Perhaps we may even end up as an idealistic parent (as per our own standards) in due course. The question that I would like to raise thru' this one pager is "should we wait to practise those things that we admire until we actually become biological parent?
The first of the thing that we can do right now is to accept our parents as they are!
Communication too has its own limits and instead of getting into an argument or persuasive explanation, we can engineer ourselves to elevate ourselves to be a graceful parent to them in turn!
Want some more room to experiment?
There are enough tortured souls around us who still long for the warmth of their mother's womb unable to stand the heat of lives. If only we can make ourselves as a pleasant shady tree for a while to such beings, it could be an unforgettable experience to us more than those grateful people. I am sure every one of us has at least few pleasant memories getting triggered in these lines - when we have received a grateful recognition from some one whom we helped at some point of time. Being in a parent can be explaining symbolically as being a shade giving tree – not out of any compulsions, external or internal, - but as our intrinsic nature.
If we look at this one way, we are slightly more blessed than a tree – we have too many options to do based on our choice and area of interest – be it working for some poverty alleviation project or literacy movements or working for the well being of other forms of lives.
In another way, there is no need to go in search of any new initiatives. Simply being graceful to people around us, providing them the nourishment they need - can alone constitute full fledged parenting.
For that matter, parenting is not about doing or thinking or feeling….it is just about “being”!
For that matter, all that we can physically do, think about and feel for has a saturation point, right? With a very little practical wisdom, every one will come to realise that "being" a parent has no saturation point at all.
Being a parent is actually a mindset and if at all we are grateful to our own parents, it is because, they had demonstrated this mindset once a while – may not be always – which could be some times quite unconsciously too.
As explained earlier too, there is really no need for us to become a “biological” parent to consciously practise what our parents and forefathers have done. It is really a mystery why impotency is a subject of so much pain and mental suffocation to many couples who are not blessed with a child.
The greatest tragedy of modern world is that we have huge deficit of “parent” mindset. Particularly in our country, since we have thoroughly misunderstood the virtues of being a parent as though it means “physical parenting”, we have become such an overpopulated country. The beauty of becoming a "mental" parent is that you will naturally start triggering lot of such parents around you.
Last but not the least, becoming a “mental” parent can be instantaneous without painful waiting period of 9 months or so! Happy Parenting…..!!
Parenting – Afterword
I did not want to write a “prelude” this time because this subject does not warrant any dilution or distraction of your thoughts and emotions when you read through ! However, I have included an “afterword” this time because….I wanted to explain you the background of what ever that was written.
Any one who has underwent a Yoga program at Isha will realize that I have put across the thoughts sown in our minds during our program. But, what ever is written above has been penned down with lot of conviction and clarity from my own experiences and experimentation.
By the by, is there any original thoughts that we can have? For that matter, can there be any new thought in this universe? May be we think about it for the first time….but we were triggered on this only because it is very much in the air that we live in.
In that sense, there are no "inventions" or "re-inventions" with respect truths about lives. At best they could be self discoveries.
I did not want to write a “prelude” this time because this subject does not warrant any dilution or distraction of your thoughts and emotions when you read through ! However, I have included an “afterword” this time because….I wanted to explain you the background of what ever that was written.
Any one who has underwent a Yoga program at Isha will realize that I have put across the thoughts sown in our minds during our program. But, what ever is written above has been penned down with lot of conviction and clarity from my own experiences and experimentation.
By the by, is there any original thoughts that we can have? For that matter, can there be any new thought in this universe? May be we think about it for the first time….but we were triggered on this only because it is very much in the air that we live in.
In that sense, there are no "inventions" or "re-inventions" with respect truths about lives. At best they could be self discoveries.
Friday, March 6, 2009
Musings on "Boredom"
Dear Friends
Many diagonise that the root cause of boredom is in doing same things again and again !!
Let us touch our hearts for a moment and genuinely answer this question……Is it possible to do different different things all thru' our lives ?
Check with Kamal Haasan or AR Rahman in private, they will candidly admit that their work is not always "different" for them. Perhaps they may have more percentage of variety than for you and me.The first thing to admit to ourself to drive away the boredom is that "repetition" is unavoidable in lives.
In fact I have always felt repetition as a great opportunity instead !! But how, let me explain
The first time we do some thing, we are over-cautious and really miss the pleasure of enjoying it. When we become experts in any act for that matter, here is an opportunity to test out ourselves in terms of some stretch goals OR taking up some new dimensions that we can never think about when we do things first. Catch my point ? With we doubly sure about our performance as we are experienced, the second time we can indeed take a goal on the quality of our output, look for a delighter goal in the third attempt, try to bring down the time by half in the fourth time….and so on….But why ?? Just to kill the boredom…I don’t think this planet will be sufficient for our aspirations if we want variety in life. It is we who have to change ourselves as performers and not complain about the stagnancy of the work.What ever we pinpoint at with our index finger, let us remember the heaviest of all - the thumb - is pointing towards only at us !!
I had the opportunity of making the presentation "Story Telling" couple of hours back here at coimbatore - which I did for Visteon last year (First week of January 2008) . It was a previlege to do this nice presentation that I impulsively prepared for you all - in front of 44 Launch Team members belonging to 11 different Operations. Logically it should have been boring for me but it was totally different experience this time. (Nithya & Jabeen know it better). Many planned things did not happen and lot of unplanned things happened during this 15 minutes presentation but it is so in our lives too…right ?
For that matter, I never get bored with the routine. Had always been an abnormal in doing the "filing" of papers passionately which people try to pass on to other lesser mortals.
Before I end this musings, let me narrate a wonderful incident that happened couple of years back.
I have a wonderful niece who is in B.Com First year currently. I have been seeing her right from her infancy and naturally we have a strong bond and perfect understanding. Once it happened, when we were walking towards our home at chennai, both of us by coincidence did not talk to each other. While I was thinking about some thing quite deeply, after close to 15 minutes as we approached our home, with a sudden jolt of realisation that it could be quite boring for her, I turned towards her and asked her "why are you so quiet ??"….She responded me with a smile with a statement that made me feel proud about her
"I was just counting from one…two...three…(numerics)…right now in 237 !!"
Believe me, it is impossible to have boredom in life ….if we are little conscious about the excitement that life can offer us…..!!
That’s all for the week
Suren
Ps:- Made a decision on BLOG…YES, it could be lot more easier to all of us. Please click the voting button if you browse internet periodically - if not regularly….
Many diagonise that the root cause of boredom is in doing same things again and again !!
Let us touch our hearts for a moment and genuinely answer this question……Is it possible to do different different things all thru' our lives ?
Check with Kamal Haasan or AR Rahman in private, they will candidly admit that their work is not always "different" for them. Perhaps they may have more percentage of variety than for you and me.The first thing to admit to ourself to drive away the boredom is that "repetition" is unavoidable in lives.
In fact I have always felt repetition as a great opportunity instead !! But how, let me explain
The first time we do some thing, we are over-cautious and really miss the pleasure of enjoying it. When we become experts in any act for that matter, here is an opportunity to test out ourselves in terms of some stretch goals OR taking up some new dimensions that we can never think about when we do things first. Catch my point ? With we doubly sure about our performance as we are experienced, the second time we can indeed take a goal on the quality of our output, look for a delighter goal in the third attempt, try to bring down the time by half in the fourth time….and so on….But why ?? Just to kill the boredom…I don’t think this planet will be sufficient for our aspirations if we want variety in life. It is we who have to change ourselves as performers and not complain about the stagnancy of the work.What ever we pinpoint at with our index finger, let us remember the heaviest of all - the thumb - is pointing towards only at us !!
I had the opportunity of making the presentation "Story Telling" couple of hours back here at coimbatore - which I did for Visteon last year (First week of January 2008) . It was a previlege to do this nice presentation that I impulsively prepared for you all - in front of 44 Launch Team members belonging to 11 different Operations. Logically it should have been boring for me but it was totally different experience this time. (Nithya & Jabeen know it better). Many planned things did not happen and lot of unplanned things happened during this 15 minutes presentation but it is so in our lives too…right ?
For that matter, I never get bored with the routine. Had always been an abnormal in doing the "filing" of papers passionately which people try to pass on to other lesser mortals.
Before I end this musings, let me narrate a wonderful incident that happened couple of years back.
I have a wonderful niece who is in B.Com First year currently. I have been seeing her right from her infancy and naturally we have a strong bond and perfect understanding. Once it happened, when we were walking towards our home at chennai, both of us by coincidence did not talk to each other. While I was thinking about some thing quite deeply, after close to 15 minutes as we approached our home, with a sudden jolt of realisation that it could be quite boring for her, I turned towards her and asked her "why are you so quiet ??"….She responded me with a smile with a statement that made me feel proud about her
"I was just counting from one…two...three…(numerics)…right now in 237 !!"
Believe me, it is impossible to have boredom in life ….if we are little conscious about the excitement that life can offer us…..!!
That’s all for the week
Suren
Ps:- Made a decision on BLOG…YES, it could be lot more easier to all of us. Please click the voting button if you browse internet periodically - if not regularly….
Musings on "Expressions"
Well, I sincerely believe all of us are poets - by default .
As human beings (for sure) we have feelings ….and feelings are the foundation of writing poems. Some one told me quite recently (of course, who is in the distribution list) that he / she feels like writing a poem after reading Lokesh's poem. Do you get the point ??? When we are very happy, our expressions becoming beautiful and poetic - I mean - both the facial expressions as well as verbal expressions.
It is not by accident that many of the God Men gave us scriptures in the form of poems / songs regardless of what ever religion they profess to; it is just that they are truly blissful beings that their expressions turned out to be poems. Coming to you and me, though we are not in their level of blissful experience, we can very well consciously create situations and circumstances in our lives to make us truly blissful once a while …..and record it as poems. Eternity or Divine Grace or God or Nature - what ever name you chose to define it - ensures that when one of us are happy, it spreads to others around him. Like sorrow and hatred, good things too are contagious.
For that matter I am taking poems only as a symbolism in the earlier paras. I consider my "one pagers", the one to one mail interactions with every one of you people - why, even this very mail as an earnest expression from me. To be bit blunt, the intention of this mail is not to impress you people but this is for my own self improvement.
There are other art forms like music, painting, sculpute which are non-verbal and push us into a great experience - but many of them unfortunately need some formal training to enjoy them. In that sense, Reading, Writing, Hearing and Speaking (can we call them RWHS ?) are simpler form of arts that all of us can do provided we are blessed by God with our sense organs and blessed by our parents on education. Since, we cannot take any credit on the basic skills of RWHS, we should earnestly try to improve upon it. And once we start working on these art forms sincerely, we will start finding that our learning is always an upward graph which never ends. You can also find that RWHS are paired in a way. To speak well, we need to listen well….To write well, we need to read well. The first of the two are outputs while the latter too are inputs.
Not a soul on earth can feel proud that he is an expert in RWHS because, the moment the pride comes to the mind, there is possibility of slip. We automatically turn lot more humble and receptive and then more growth happens…..
So, that was my quota for this week. Thinking seriously if I should start a blog instead of writing in official mail id….I promise to you all that I will allocate time to you all weekly once as much as I can though it may slip to once a fortnight on some really hard weeks. This is only about my mails to you. From your side, you are free to write me on any thing that I could be of some value. I will always respond to you, if needed.
Krishnaarpanam
Between the cup and the lips !!
Dear Folks
I had created this blog (with the help of my cousin) on Dec 31st....and it has taken close to 65 days to announce it to you people.
I really dont feel bad about the long time taken...because I am quite happy and relieved that this has not become an abandoned initiative from my side. Have we not heard of instances which resemble the famous phrase "many a slip between cup and the lips".....So much time was needed for me to make myself really sure that a BLOG is needed..and it will be of some value to any one who visits this blog.
My heartfull gratitude goes to those few volunteers at Visteon Payables team of FBSC whom I had used like "rats"...for all my experiments in writing...!! They helped me by giving their support to all my wierd (some times) thoughts and their feedback to my mails to them....until I really got a comfort that...OK my blog will at least have half a dozen visitors every week...if not every day....!! For that matter my postings too will be on weekly basis only. I have pasted couple of my recent musings after this intro note..along with the two new poems that I have written during 2009.
Folks, now you are free to refer this blog to your friends and like minded people.....I have arrived in public....at last !!!
Krishnaarpanam as Always.....
Suren
I had created this blog (with the help of my cousin) on Dec 31st....and it has taken close to 65 days to announce it to you people.
I really dont feel bad about the long time taken...because I am quite happy and relieved that this has not become an abandoned initiative from my side. Have we not heard of instances which resemble the famous phrase "many a slip between cup and the lips".....So much time was needed for me to make myself really sure that a BLOG is needed..and it will be of some value to any one who visits this blog.
My heartfull gratitude goes to those few volunteers at Visteon Payables team of FBSC whom I had used like "rats"...for all my experiments in writing...!! They helped me by giving their support to all my wierd (some times) thoughts and their feedback to my mails to them....until I really got a comfort that...OK my blog will at least have half a dozen visitors every week...if not every day....!! For that matter my postings too will be on weekly basis only. I have pasted couple of my recent musings after this intro note..along with the two new poems that I have written during 2009.
Folks, now you are free to refer this blog to your friends and like minded people.....I have arrived in public....at last !!!
Krishnaarpanam as Always.....
Suren
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